what is the deal with a new years kiss?
i mean really people
people make all this hype about kissing someone at midnight on new years eve
whats the magic behind that besides any other time of the year?
is it some horny hormone crazed moment where your just acting like everybody else?
bunch of sheep
or are you doing it because it actually means something
welcoming the new year with the people you love
or if your in time square- a bunch of random horny strangers :D
- my question is. if you are in times square why would you kiss a random stranger? that just seems icky to me
but whats so magical about having a kiss?
are you actually going to end up with this person?
like getting one kiss could change everything?
well i honestly could care less if i get a kiss on new years
i used to care and i was self conscious because i was the only one that didn't have someone to kiss at midnight
and you know what?
now i don't give a crap
i could honestly care less if i have some one to kiss at midnight
if i get kissed- great, cool, whatever.
- I've sort of stopped believing in fairy tales so that includes getting kissed on new years
if not- that's totally fine with me
but i wont beat myself up over not getting a kiss
life is too short to worry about the small stuff like not getting kissed
so go on and pucker up for your midnight kiss
all you girls put on your favorite raspberry lemonade lipgloss and guys pop your breath mints
i'll be singing aud lang syne and toasting to the new year
instead of playing tonsil hockey like 99.99% of the rest of the population
guess whose not going to be the sheep on new years eve?
this girl
- dare to be different :) and love yourself for it
<3
Friday, December 30, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
17
my life as a 17 year old girl is almost over
currently in about three hours i will be a scary 18 year old
a LEGAL ADULT!!!
eep!
i can buy cigarettes
and dry ice
woopie i can make smoking toilets
oh and lottery tickets :D
so i have learned a few things from being an average 17 year old girl
such as
-don't drive on a flat
-make sure your lights are off before you leave your car or your car will die
-make sure to defrost your car all the way- its the scariest thing in the world when you cant see and your having your little sister direct you into the Safeway parking lot
-watch your gas gauge
-as you can see most of my learning has been about my car
- make sure you have your keys in your hand before you exit your care and accidentally lock them in there
-i have done that twice. once while i was at my field experience and once when it was freezing cold outside
- if you do manage to lock your keys in your car make sure you at least have a phone, a warm jacket and get an extra set outside of your car. even a coat hanger on hand helps
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- don't associate with people that suggest you to come over to their house and you don't know them all that
- as in creepy boys
- prom is pretty cool. not as cool as its making it out to be but its still pretty awesome
- its totally fine to be a "single lady"
- you don't have to have a date to fit in
- don't date friends- EVER
- don't think about going out with people that flirt allot just because they are"nice"
-protect your heart
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-don't give in to drama. drama is just caused by people that are too petty or too proud to accept another persons differences.
- the bigger person is the first one to say that they are sorry
- don't believe everything that people tell you. you have to think for themselves
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-don't over schedule yourself
- if you get on probation in NHS. show ms low wrong and get off probation the next semester
-start studying for AP tests early
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-don't get your hopes up too high because when they fall you will be a blubbering mass of jello
-put yourself out there. if you act like yourself you will attract people that love you for who you are and weed out the people that don't really matter in your life
- don't be afraid to speak your mind
-be honest-but don't be mean while being honest
-don't doubt yourself. your capable of so much if you just believe in yourself
-ask why not
live
laugh
love allot
and be fearless
that's my new years resolution
to be fearless
i know that sounds totally cliche
but it works for me :)
Monday, September 12, 2011
never grow up
i wish i would never grow up
i legitimately wish that most days
like i'm peter pan or something along those lines
who knows
like all these problems i'm facing with confusing boys and stress and drama and what other crap that can and will exhist in my life
its just dumb
i wish i was four years old again
i could take naps
and the hardest decision was which snack i wanted
-fruit snacks or goldfish
there was no drama about if this guy liked you or not
you had a boyfriend and the only reason he actually was you boyfriend was because he shared his fruit snacks with you, just a simpler time.
wouldnt it be great to go back to a time when you were so innocent to the world
when the easter bunny and santa clause were real and not your parents- sorry if i just blew that out of the water for you
when you didnt have to get told at the doctors that you can come to them for birth control and your parents dont have know about it, which i think is weird because i tell them that i'm just barely if not even dating and they still give me that talk every single time!- i live under a rock remember!
when you mention "kids" and people automatically assume that they are your legitimate kids, like flesh and blood. really people?!? - it was my teacher cadet kids or students from my 1st and 2nd grade classroom last year
when you didnt have to worry about your students because they have a boyfriend in 2nd grade and they are sort of figuring out boys - i just figured out some stuff actually
when my childhood sweetheart was dan cooper
when i still liked to play with my bijillion beanie baby kittens
when i had a legit play structure and sand box in my back yard (my neighbors can totally attest to how awesome it really was)
when you thought anybody could be a princess
when you still wished and waited for prince charming to come and sweep you off your feet
when the opposite sex wasnt so confusing
when life wasnt so complicated
when you thought high school was cool (something like highschool musical)
when you had must larger dreams
when there wasnt jokes about you ending up alone as the crazy old cat lady
when there werent any complicated feelings
when i used to draw my "j"'s backwards :)
when you werent afraid to share your feelings
when my height wasnt so annoying- i mean really 5' 10"! - i'm taller then about 50-75% of the guys in my class because of my fricken height!- and guys dont like girls that are taller then them- well what i have found at least
i dont want to grow up
i dont want my former 1st and 2nd graders to grow up
the song never grow up by taylor swift totally descibes my feelings towards them growing up. they are so little and innocent and i dont want any of them to have to go through the sometime trama of growing up, being in that awkward stage and sometimes getting their little heart broken.
i want them to stay innocent as long as possible
i want them to love still love justin bieber even if it means they keep their innocense and sense of wonder about the world, then i guess loving justin bieber is what it will take
as my mom used to say "i'll put bricks on your head so you'll stop getting so big" - dont worry she never did but it seemed like she too didnt want me to grow up too fast-maybe i should go get some bricks :p jk
maybe the reason why i suddenly don't want to grow up is because so many changes and experiences are going to happen in this next year. going off to college seems so scary and i almost don't feel old enough to be making that big of decision. deciding on my own, what i want to do, not what everybody else wants me to. i have to take my own life into my hands now
how scary is that?
i guess we all in sometime or another in our lives do not want to grow up, the future seems to scary or too overwhelming that you just want to go back to a time when you werent scared.
but growing up is about facing the unknown, facing the wind to your face instead of your back and learning to fly.
never growing up is unrealistic
no one person can stop themselves form aging or growing older just like how you cant keep the sun from setting
its inevitable
growing up is facing your fears
and even as a big scary senior in high school i dont want to face them yet
but i still have alot of growing up to do this year
i'll have to face the wind sometime
but not today
today i will curl up with my baby blanket and eat some fruit snacks while i watch re runs of scooby doo :)
i will grow up
just today i wont try to
i'll just enjoy my fruit snacks for now :)
<3
i legitimately wish that most days
like i'm peter pan or something along those lines
who knows
like all these problems i'm facing with confusing boys and stress and drama and what other crap that can and will exhist in my life
its just dumb
i wish i was four years old again
i could take naps
and the hardest decision was which snack i wanted
-fruit snacks or goldfish
there was no drama about if this guy liked you or not
you had a boyfriend and the only reason he actually was you boyfriend was because he shared his fruit snacks with you, just a simpler time.
wouldnt it be great to go back to a time when you were so innocent to the world
when the easter bunny and santa clause were real and not your parents- sorry if i just blew that out of the water for you
when you didnt have to get told at the doctors that you can come to them for birth control and your parents dont have know about it, which i think is weird because i tell them that i'm just barely if not even dating and they still give me that talk every single time!- i live under a rock remember!
when you mention "kids" and people automatically assume that they are your legitimate kids, like flesh and blood. really people?!? - it was my teacher cadet kids or students from my 1st and 2nd grade classroom last year
when you didnt have to worry about your students because they have a boyfriend in 2nd grade and they are sort of figuring out boys - i just figured out some stuff actually
when my childhood sweetheart was dan cooper
when i still liked to play with my bijillion beanie baby kittens
when i had a legit play structure and sand box in my back yard (my neighbors can totally attest to how awesome it really was)
when you thought anybody could be a princess
when you still wished and waited for prince charming to come and sweep you off your feet
when the opposite sex wasnt so confusing
when life wasnt so complicated
when you thought high school was cool (something like highschool musical)
when you had must larger dreams
when there wasnt jokes about you ending up alone as the crazy old cat lady
when there werent any complicated feelings
when i used to draw my "j"'s backwards :)
when you werent afraid to share your feelings
when my height wasnt so annoying- i mean really 5' 10"! - i'm taller then about 50-75% of the guys in my class because of my fricken height!- and guys dont like girls that are taller then them- well what i have found at least
i dont want to grow up
i dont want my former 1st and 2nd graders to grow up
the song never grow up by taylor swift totally descibes my feelings towards them growing up. they are so little and innocent and i dont want any of them to have to go through the sometime trama of growing up, being in that awkward stage and sometimes getting their little heart broken.
i want them to stay innocent as long as possible
i want them to love still love justin bieber even if it means they keep their innocense and sense of wonder about the world, then i guess loving justin bieber is what it will take
as my mom used to say "i'll put bricks on your head so you'll stop getting so big" - dont worry she never did but it seemed like she too didnt want me to grow up too fast-maybe i should go get some bricks :p jk
maybe the reason why i suddenly don't want to grow up is because so many changes and experiences are going to happen in this next year. going off to college seems so scary and i almost don't feel old enough to be making that big of decision. deciding on my own, what i want to do, not what everybody else wants me to. i have to take my own life into my hands now
how scary is that?
i guess we all in sometime or another in our lives do not want to grow up, the future seems to scary or too overwhelming that you just want to go back to a time when you werent scared.
but growing up is about facing the unknown, facing the wind to your face instead of your back and learning to fly.
never growing up is unrealistic
no one person can stop themselves form aging or growing older just like how you cant keep the sun from setting
its inevitable
growing up is facing your fears
and even as a big scary senior in high school i dont want to face them yet
but i still have alot of growing up to do this year
i'll have to face the wind sometime
but not today
today i will curl up with my baby blanket and eat some fruit snacks while i watch re runs of scooby doo :)
i will grow up
just today i wont try to
i'll just enjoy my fruit snacks for now :)
<3
Sunday, August 7, 2011
best thing i never had
every person who has ever been used totally knows what being used feels like
it sucks
let me just tell you that
i have been used
believe it or not
the unique music blogger chick actually has been used by guys
i know suprising
i dont get why guys like to use me
i guess because i'm "hot", i just think i'm pretty
they think i'd be a great booty call
when really i'm not that experienced
and i would never and will never be a booty call
that would be an all time low for me
i just wont
i need respect
i demand it
i will never stoop to that level of using my body that way
no way in h e double hockey sticks will i ever be that
i am many things
and will be many things
but i will never be a booty call
i was having a very similar conversation with one of my best friends nick miller yesterday
and he doesnt understand it either
there is soo much more to me then just what i look like
i was talking to an ex and he had criticized my date idea and was trying to pull himself out of what he did
and he was complimenting me
and all the compliments were mostly about what i looked like
not really who i was inside
beauty is more than skin deep
i think the using initially started in 8th grade
this boy "liked" me because i was "hot" and "smart" - really it wasnt hard to be smarter then him because i was supposed to be in honors science and somehow was in regular and he was supposed to be in that class
he was the popular bad boy
not my type at all
so he asked me out
and i was very suprised
i went on for about a week and i just sort of knew he wasnt right
i turned him down
and people glared at me
legitimatly glared at me
and he pretended to cry if i ever turned him down
so i felt bad
i think thats the first time i let people use me against myself
why should i feel bad for turning down a guy that would have just hurt me more then do good
he would have used me i know
i guess i was so desperate for something that remotely resembled a relationship that it took me a week to actually turn him down- i know it was stupid middle school drama, but being the girl that never had a boyfriend or was ever well noticed, it was sort of nice to have some small shred of a relationship and for one small minute fit in
thank god i got over that
i did have thoughts that it could work
and then they would be overwhelmed by thoughts of those saying "he will hurt you" and "he is not for you" and "what will happen anyways?"
the next was probably that one guy that i had a fling with the summer before my junior year
yeah.....
yeah.....
and the next was the guy at summer camp this summer
i said "it was a great learning experience"- it was maybe 24 hours
and he replied "it was an experience"
nothing more
nothing less
just something that happened
no strings attached
just something
none of them really cared
they just wanted to use me
my good friend nick asked me a few days ago "what is up with you and getting used by guys?"
i answered "i have no idea"
so i'm done with being used
i wont let any of these guys back into my life, if they didnt care about me to start with and only got to know me for personal gain they have officially become scum and will never be someone who i care about deeply.
they never really cared
the just wanted something out of it that i didnt want to give and will never give to a guy like that
i learned something from each
the first guy- dont give into peer pressure,and just because the guy is popular and seems perfect, doesnt mean you should go out with him
the second guy- dont believe everything a guy whos too good to be true says, and take it slow
the third guy- guard your heart and listen to your friends,and dont tear your self apart over that one of the reasons he didnt want to continue anything was because you were taller than him.
i learned from each and now i know the truth that they were just trying to use me
i know now to listen to my heart,
take it slow and at my own pace that i am comfortable at
dont let others influence your opinion on what you should or shouldnt do- mostly on what i should do
love yourself for who you are, even if you are taller then 75% of guys in your class- it sucks being a 5' 10" tall girl
so the song "best thing i never had" by beyonce
pretty well describes how i feel towards these guys now
i have moved on and now i am a stronger person because of it
they all taught me something and probably somewhere in the depths of their minds they are thinking "d*mn! i totally screwed up that time. what was a thinking?!?"
"did you expect me to care?"- not any more
"you dont deserve my tears" - i have cried over each of you, but no longer
"i guess thats why they aint there"- will never cry over you again
so if this is to all males out there that even have a small shred of thought that they would like to use me
DONT!
i will not let you
and will never let you
and there will be h e double hockey sticks to pay if you do
i'm a stronger person
i'm smarter than i was
and i have learned
i am an unstoppable force
if your not the wind at my back, your the wind to my face
dont hold me down
dont even think about trying to use me
because i will never be the used again
and i will never be the user ever
and to all the guys that have done me wrong
"i bet it sucks to be you right now"
Saturday, July 30, 2011
confusing boys
ok well due to my capitain obvious attitude that i love to apply in this blog. this blog is about, you guessed it, how those of the male persuation sometimes confuse those of the female persuation
guys confuse girls
girls confuse guys
i've seen this multiple times in facebook status's that the poor boyfriend does not understand the subtle hints that his girlfriend is flashing at him
unfortunantly he is blind to them. its ok. its not your fault. you just have an X and a Y instead of two X's, so of course there is going to be confusion.
my good friend alex, and the ex that i went to prom with, was having a bad day and was complaining about not being able to get a date. so i told him what i had told him a few times before
"THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND THE OPPOSITE SEX!"
-because well it doesnt
do you think romeo and juliet automatically understood each other when they met?
probably not
just ponder that for a minute
then move on to the next part of this blog
once your done pondering of course
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ok done? good
so heres the real reason i'm writing a blog about why guys are confusing
one reason is because i got bored and asked my friends again to give me ideas, because i couldnt think of anything wildly witty to write about at the moment
and my good friend rylee (the one suggested a blog about feet and turtles) suggested i write a blog about "write about guys and if they like a girl they should do something about it instead of just giving her weird looks all the time and being a chicken."
just by having major girl powers/ intuition, that are semi close to those of a master jedi, i figured out she is having troubles with a boy and i think it might be at work because she encounters a lot of cute diver guys at her work.
the other reason is that i too am confused by boys sometimes
ok sometimes i can read them like a book
and sometimes i'm totally clueless
thank god i have friends that have more experience then me
but your not alone
its an issue that will never be solved- sorry to burst your bubble
the never ending statement "i dont get him/her!!"
theres been many novels,articls and collums about the differences between the sexes and how we dont understand each other.
so being the person i am, and if i dont know something i will go "research" it,i actually have one of those books,i know who'd thought i'd ever stoop to that level. but i got it a few years ago and its entitiled "guys are waffles, girls are spaghetti"
it talks about how guys compartmentalize stuff into sections like the boxes in a waffle.
and it talks about how everything in a girls life are connected like how each noodle in a pile of spaghetti touches mulitple other noodles
its quite interesting actually
i'm actually both
i have different aspects of my life and when something from one section trys to be in another, i sort of freak
ex- current crushes and dumb ex's- they dont mix well
but i also there are things that do belong in mulitple boxes
ex- band - family, school, music, friends- the mix nicely
so i'm waffles and spaghetti in some ways
- i know, i'm just unique
so now i'm FINALLY going to answer rylees question
why is that boy giving her weird looks and wont do anything
as in the next move of asking out on a date
well hes probably scared to death
inside all of us is that one thing that can make us turn into enormous globs of jelly instead of the strong person we are
its not you rylee. ok maybe its a little you, but its not your fault.
theres so much personality and you there, he doesnt know what to do.
hes probably just afraid you'll say no
which quite frankly is one of the main reasons why i sometimes fail to snag a relationship sometimes
i'm a big chicken when it comes to stuff like that
i have a lot of pride and i'm a bit self concious. so if someone deny's me i wwaaaaay over think it.
i think "he must think i'm crazy, and wont talk to me ever again, and ohh god why did i do that i'm sooo stupid."
on and on until i'm on the floor in my bedroom with a carton of icecream crying over it because i over thought it
whatever you do
DONT END UP LIKE THAT!
just give him hints that you like him
and give him weird looks back if he ever gives you those
and if hes not catching anything hes not worth your time
there are tons of fish in the sea
but if you do snag him good job :)
heres some rulesto follow
1-be honest about your feelings- very big piece of advice!
2-dont go too fast- another good piece
3-go at your own pace
4-dont let others influence what you should and shouldnt do
5-listen to your heart- ok that one sounds straight out of a romance novel
6-just be yourself no matter what
see heres the problem with having confusing boys, or confusing girls
sometimes we dont live by those rules and someone gets hurt. and then it gets complicated.
girls try to give hints to guys to let them know that they like them
and sometimes they dont get the message or interpret it wrong.
the problem is we are two different people
hes a guy
your a girl
the trick is to find a way to communicate with the opposite sex
guys always think girls are so complicated
and girls always think guys are so dumb to their hints
from what i've found out, the opposite sex likes the same tricks that you use on them.
so if you like to be complimented and feel good about yourself
so does the opposited sex
were reciprocal
just treat them how you would want to be treated
be genuine
be nice
be honest
compliment them
dont belittle them
be supportive
dont complain
just be an extra good friend
care for them sometimes more then they care for themselves
notice details that may be very important
be your wonderful self
and its totally fine to be confused
so rylee all i can say is
just be yourself and treat others how you would like to be treated
and maybe drop some big hints
good luck with that boy
i hope it helps :)
<3
guys confuse girls
girls confuse guys
i've seen this multiple times in facebook status's that the poor boyfriend does not understand the subtle hints that his girlfriend is flashing at him
unfortunantly he is blind to them. its ok. its not your fault. you just have an X and a Y instead of two X's, so of course there is going to be confusion.
my good friend alex, and the ex that i went to prom with, was having a bad day and was complaining about not being able to get a date. so i told him what i had told him a few times before
"THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND THE OPPOSITE SEX!"
-because well it doesnt
do you think romeo and juliet automatically understood each other when they met?
probably not
just ponder that for a minute
then move on to the next part of this blog
once your done pondering of course
.
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...
....
.....
......
.....
....
...
..
.
ok done? good
so heres the real reason i'm writing a blog about why guys are confusing
one reason is because i got bored and asked my friends again to give me ideas, because i couldnt think of anything wildly witty to write about at the moment
and my good friend rylee (the one suggested a blog about feet and turtles) suggested i write a blog about "write about guys and if they like a girl they should do something about it instead of just giving her weird looks all the time and being a chicken."
just by having major girl powers/ intuition, that are semi close to those of a master jedi, i figured out she is having troubles with a boy and i think it might be at work because she encounters a lot of cute diver guys at her work.
the other reason is that i too am confused by boys sometimes
ok sometimes i can read them like a book
and sometimes i'm totally clueless
thank god i have friends that have more experience then me
but your not alone
its an issue that will never be solved- sorry to burst your bubble
the never ending statement "i dont get him/her!!"
theres been many novels,articls and collums about the differences between the sexes and how we dont understand each other.
so being the person i am, and if i dont know something i will go "research" it,i actually have one of those books,i know who'd thought i'd ever stoop to that level. but i got it a few years ago and its entitiled "guys are waffles, girls are spaghetti"
it talks about how guys compartmentalize stuff into sections like the boxes in a waffle.
and it talks about how everything in a girls life are connected like how each noodle in a pile of spaghetti touches mulitple other noodles
its quite interesting actually
i'm actually both
i have different aspects of my life and when something from one section trys to be in another, i sort of freak
ex- current crushes and dumb ex's- they dont mix well
but i also there are things that do belong in mulitple boxes
ex- band - family, school, music, friends- the mix nicely
so i'm waffles and spaghetti in some ways
- i know, i'm just unique
so now i'm FINALLY going to answer rylees question
why is that boy giving her weird looks and wont do anything
as in the next move of asking out on a date
well hes probably scared to death
inside all of us is that one thing that can make us turn into enormous globs of jelly instead of the strong person we are
its not you rylee. ok maybe its a little you, but its not your fault.
theres so much personality and you there, he doesnt know what to do.
hes probably just afraid you'll say no
which quite frankly is one of the main reasons why i sometimes fail to snag a relationship sometimes
i'm a big chicken when it comes to stuff like that
i have a lot of pride and i'm a bit self concious. so if someone deny's me i wwaaaaay over think it.
i think "he must think i'm crazy, and wont talk to me ever again, and ohh god why did i do that i'm sooo stupid."
on and on until i'm on the floor in my bedroom with a carton of icecream crying over it because i over thought it
whatever you do
DONT END UP LIKE THAT!
just give him hints that you like him
and give him weird looks back if he ever gives you those
and if hes not catching anything hes not worth your time
there are tons of fish in the sea
but if you do snag him good job :)
heres some rulesto follow
1-be honest about your feelings- very big piece of advice!
2-dont go too fast- another good piece
3-go at your own pace
4-dont let others influence what you should and shouldnt do
5-listen to your heart- ok that one sounds straight out of a romance novel
6-just be yourself no matter what
see heres the problem with having confusing boys, or confusing girls
sometimes we dont live by those rules and someone gets hurt. and then it gets complicated.
girls try to give hints to guys to let them know that they like them
and sometimes they dont get the message or interpret it wrong.
the problem is we are two different people
hes a guy
your a girl
the trick is to find a way to communicate with the opposite sex
guys always think girls are so complicated
and girls always think guys are so dumb to their hints
from what i've found out, the opposite sex likes the same tricks that you use on them.
so if you like to be complimented and feel good about yourself
so does the opposited sex
were reciprocal
just treat them how you would want to be treated
be genuine
be nice
be honest
compliment them
dont belittle them
be supportive
dont complain
just be an extra good friend
care for them sometimes more then they care for themselves
notice details that may be very important
be your wonderful self
and its totally fine to be confused
so rylee all i can say is
just be yourself and treat others how you would like to be treated
and maybe drop some big hints
good luck with that boy
i hope it helps :)
<3
Monday, July 18, 2011
true friends
friends
amigos
pals
chums
associates
links
contacts
pal
buddy
companion
comrade
crony
mate- i think this ones funny and i always think of an australian guy saying "gooday mate"
people you know that you have something in common with or maybe you just think the other person is semi interesting and you just call each other friends so you dont have to call them a cordial aquaintance
the dictionary.com definition is....
amigos
pals
chums
associates
links
contacts
pal
buddy
companion
comrade
crony
mate- i think this ones funny and i always think of an australian guy saying "gooday mate"
people you know that you have something in common with or maybe you just think the other person is semi interesting and you just call each other friends so you dont have to call them a cordial aquaintance
the dictionary.com definition is....
–noun
1.
a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
3.
so pretty much its someone you can stand for longer than two seconds
i have all different kinds of friends
there are the best friends-
the ones that would bail you out of jail no matter what. i have a few of those, i think caroline would be one of them, they always include you, start the converstaion on facebook and are always willing to have a chat no matter what. they are genuine and kind and are a "bosom friend" :)- love you chicka
then there are the good best friends-
the ones that invited you no matter what to an event even if you havent been able to come to the last four they have invited you to they still decide to include you (thank you alex clark and sarah ferraro).
they talk to you all the time on facebook and they care more about you then you ever thought anyone ever could (jawzii).
they listen to all of our crap that is going on in your life even though they've only known you like two weeks and just having someone to listen to you and talk to is one of the best things anyone could ever do(armon). the ones that say "if your going to even think about dating this boy i'm going to have to talk to him first." and say that "if this boy cant accept you for your height or something else about you then he is totally not worth your time"(tristan)
they are so over protective sometimes it pisses you off but you know its for your own good and you love them anyways because of it, because they are your adopted big brother (alex cook).
give you advice. pick you up when your down and sometimes bring you cupcakes if your having an unusually awful day(thanks again tia and ali)
the ones that come over no matter what and are always ready and willing to have a zelda night or play some maro kart on wii, they let you jump on their trampoline, and you scooter around the block with them all summer long. they know you better then you even know yourself (nick)
then there are the "friends"-
its the people you hang out with at school but sometimes you honestly dont know anything about them. you just so happen to be in band with them and since you've both been through hell and back (sorry mom) during band camp you just somehow become "friends". or that you've been friends with these people for so long you dont know what to call them besides friends. you sometimes talk but you honestly dont know if they even care about you or what is going on in your life. these "friends" sometimes enjoy making fun of your insecurities, such as that you are a hopeless romantic or that you had a fling with a pretty spanish boy *cough* luke nord. they sometimes dont invited you because they "forgot" or they "couldnt get a hold of you". then they post on facebook how fun it was to be at that party. yeah thats soo much fun.....
i just want to be included
then there are the family friends
my dad would be one of them
we have the weirdest discussions and when i'm talking to him i usually dont have to worry about anything. if caroline for some odd reason couldnt come and bail me out of jail i would probably call my dad next.
all of my cousins and my aunts and uncles and my grandparents are some of the best people ever and i am proud to call you my family
over these past few weeks i've experienced some stuff that sort of drew the lines of where my true friends lie and where my not as true ones lie. i still want to be friends with people but now i have an idea on who actually matters to me. who cares for me as much as i care for them.
and its because of this i now know who my true legitimate go to the ends of the earth friends
are you in this group?
a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?
so pretty much its someone you can stand for longer than two seconds
i have all different kinds of friends
there are the best friends-
the ones that would bail you out of jail no matter what. i have a few of those, i think caroline would be one of them, they always include you, start the converstaion on facebook and are always willing to have a chat no matter what. they are genuine and kind and are a "bosom friend" :)- love you chicka
then there are the good best friends-
the ones that invited you no matter what to an event even if you havent been able to come to the last four they have invited you to they still decide to include you (thank you alex clark and sarah ferraro).
they talk to you all the time on facebook and they care more about you then you ever thought anyone ever could (jawzii).
they listen to all of our crap that is going on in your life even though they've only known you like two weeks and just having someone to listen to you and talk to is one of the best things anyone could ever do(armon). the ones that say "if your going to even think about dating this boy i'm going to have to talk to him first." and say that "if this boy cant accept you for your height or something else about you then he is totally not worth your time"(tristan)
they are so over protective sometimes it pisses you off but you know its for your own good and you love them anyways because of it, because they are your adopted big brother (alex cook).
give you advice. pick you up when your down and sometimes bring you cupcakes if your having an unusually awful day(thanks again tia and ali)
the ones that come over no matter what and are always ready and willing to have a zelda night or play some maro kart on wii, they let you jump on their trampoline, and you scooter around the block with them all summer long. they know you better then you even know yourself (nick)
then there are the "friends"-
its the people you hang out with at school but sometimes you honestly dont know anything about them. you just so happen to be in band with them and since you've both been through hell and back (sorry mom) during band camp you just somehow become "friends". or that you've been friends with these people for so long you dont know what to call them besides friends. you sometimes talk but you honestly dont know if they even care about you or what is going on in your life. these "friends" sometimes enjoy making fun of your insecurities, such as that you are a hopeless romantic or that you had a fling with a pretty spanish boy *cough* luke nord. they sometimes dont invited you because they "forgot" or they "couldnt get a hold of you". then they post on facebook how fun it was to be at that party. yeah thats soo much fun.....
i just want to be included
then there are the family friends
my dad would be one of them
we have the weirdest discussions and when i'm talking to him i usually dont have to worry about anything. if caroline for some odd reason couldnt come and bail me out of jail i would probably call my dad next.
all of my cousins and my aunts and uncles and my grandparents are some of the best people ever and i am proud to call you my family
over these past few weeks i've experienced some stuff that sort of drew the lines of where my true friends lie and where my not as true ones lie. i still want to be friends with people but now i have an idea on who actually matters to me. who cares for me as much as i care for them.
and its because of this i now know who my true legitimate go to the ends of the earth friends
are you in this group?
Friday, July 8, 2011
just your every day dork
so heres the gist
so yesterday i had to go do this research study about teenagers and political views in denver for this company. - got paid 75$ :)
so yesterday we drove down town (my mom, my sister and myself) and parked and walked into the building
it wasnt until i signed in and sat down with the lobby that i noticed how different i really looked compared to the rest of the kids
i looked like a legitimate dork
first i had my pink glee shirt on- which a ton of people love that show and well i just looked very young and immature and like i watched high school musical and the disney channel as well- which i dont!
then there was my glittery silver converse - which i love to death! and every body else was in like something other then converse. so i felt like the 2nd grader thats obsessed with glitter everything with the 6th graders that are talking about boys.
then my butterfly ring- that i think is really cool and unique but compared to everyone else i was so not up to date
so i look like a freshman instead of an experienced senior
ok well i was just being myself
but everybody had a job that was a legitimate job, not babysitting
they were all wearing profesionalish clothing- except for that one guy who was a total stoner who said "weeds better for you then caffeine" - felt a little better about myself after that.
i was just in my regular street clothes that are comfy. plus my hair pulled into a pony tail- its like i cant do my hair or something!
one guy who was two years older then me is a small business owner for streaming sports events and stuff across the country. so i felt like a baby
i mean i'm 17 years old
i dont really stay with the fashion
i like my own stuff
my own style
im very original
but really? who are we kidding
i'm a dork
my friend armon likes to disagree by saying that "im not sure of a good word for it, but it seems to me that a dork is typically lame, and i know you arn't lame" - yes i did quote you
so there you have it i think i'm a dork- but not really
ok so i have a bassoon-a-ram-a shirt that i love
i say "heres the gist" alot
i blog- enough said
i have worn a sparkly beadazzled purple and white satiny cape around school that said "a-west marching band" on the back
i'm a hopeless romantic
i have a t-shirt of "the kiss" - the sailor and the nurse kissing in time square
i love marching band
i sing my show and make charts of my drill
i make star wars jokes
i love long words with odd meanings
i love musicals
i dance like a crazy person
i like taylor swift because her songs corelate to my life waaaay more then they should
i'm a dork and i'm ok with it
and armon - i know your going to disagree with me calling myself a dork
yay dorks!
so yesterday i had to go do this research study about teenagers and political views in denver for this company. - got paid 75$ :)
so yesterday we drove down town (my mom, my sister and myself) and parked and walked into the building
it wasnt until i signed in and sat down with the lobby that i noticed how different i really looked compared to the rest of the kids
i looked like a legitimate dork
first i had my pink glee shirt on- which a ton of people love that show and well i just looked very young and immature and like i watched high school musical and the disney channel as well- which i dont!
then there was my glittery silver converse - which i love to death! and every body else was in like something other then converse. so i felt like the 2nd grader thats obsessed with glitter everything with the 6th graders that are talking about boys.
then my butterfly ring- that i think is really cool and unique but compared to everyone else i was so not up to date
so i look like a freshman instead of an experienced senior
ok well i was just being myself
but everybody had a job that was a legitimate job, not babysitting
they were all wearing profesionalish clothing- except for that one guy who was a total stoner who said "weeds better for you then caffeine" - felt a little better about myself after that.
i was just in my regular street clothes that are comfy. plus my hair pulled into a pony tail- its like i cant do my hair or something!
one guy who was two years older then me is a small business owner for streaming sports events and stuff across the country. so i felt like a baby
i mean i'm 17 years old
i dont really stay with the fashion
i like my own stuff
my own style
im very original
but really? who are we kidding
i'm a dork
my friend armon likes to disagree by saying that "im not sure of a good word for it, but it seems to me that a dork is typically lame, and i know you arn't lame" - yes i did quote you
so there you have it i think i'm a dork- but not really
ok so i have a bassoon-a-ram-a shirt that i love
i say "heres the gist" alot
i blog- enough said
i have worn a sparkly beadazzled purple and white satiny cape around school that said "a-west marching band" on the back
i'm a hopeless romantic
i have a t-shirt of "the kiss" - the sailor and the nurse kissing in time square
i love marching band
i sing my show and make charts of my drill
i make star wars jokes
i love long words with odd meanings
i love musicals
i dance like a crazy person
i like taylor swift because her songs corelate to my life waaaay more then they should
i'm a dork and i'm ok with it
and armon - i know your going to disagree with me calling myself a dork
yay dorks!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
if quiggles wasnt an a**
what would happen if my friend alex quigley wasnt an a**?
-sorry mom
the world may end
so heres the gist
- wow i do start alot of these like this
ok any way
my friend quigs is a friend of mine. he enjoys hiking, marching band, being a nerd (especially in physics), likes to make fun of me, is VERY sarcastic, thinks hes cool, knows english german and apparently treble clef base clef , is NEVER EVER called by his first name (its alexander michael quigley-i found out finally what his middle name is!!victory!) but we all call him quiggles, quigs or in the case of my friend paige, pookie :) thats my favorite
but anyway he asked a legitimate question for a blog post
"If I was never an ass... Haha. (I know. 100% hypothetical)"
but i guess its a pretty good question because his sarcastic comments are a huge part of my life and of many of my friends
so what would happen if he was never an a**?
we'd totally be out of weird comments
and assumptions thats hes having a bromance with my friends nick and luke- i guess you could call it a threesome- lol
out of nerdy comments that are some how associated with physics which i do not understand
we would be out of a grammar nazi- i know sad day
and we wouldnt have someone that hates talking about politics soo much that he will "Talk Politics to me, and I'll punch you in the FACE!"
and i guess you could say that if he wasnt an a** he wouldnt be the same person, might not be involve in music with all of us weirdos, and probably wouldnt be drum major! - scandalous!!
goodness this is getting serious!
i guess one good thing would be that if he wasnt hanging around with music kids he wouldnt be associated with my friend rylee and i guess then i wouldnt be their mexican maid named hooolia and then i wouldnt ever have to get them lemonade- inside story/joke
but any way if he wasnt an a** i couldnt glare at him when he made a mean comment and then what would i do in my free time!?!!
but if he wasnt an a** i guess he wouldnt exist because he'd just be alex not quigs
we probably wouldnt be friends
and we'd have someone else as drum major
and who knows what our season would be like then?
so i guess having quiggles being an a** is an essential part
maybe he should just stay the way he is
or maybe he could be nicer- just throwing that out there
but hes fine for a friend
and theres nothing i can change about him
dang it!
-kidding :)
-sorry mom
the world may end
so heres the gist
- wow i do start alot of these like this
ok any way
my friend quigs is a friend of mine. he enjoys hiking, marching band, being a nerd (especially in physics), likes to make fun of me, is VERY sarcastic, thinks hes cool, knows english german and apparently treble clef base clef , is NEVER EVER called by his first name (its alexander michael quigley-i found out finally what his middle name is!!victory!) but we all call him quiggles, quigs or in the case of my friend paige, pookie :) thats my favorite
but anyway he asked a legitimate question for a blog post
"If I was never an ass... Haha. (I know. 100% hypothetical)"
but i guess its a pretty good question because his sarcastic comments are a huge part of my life and of many of my friends
so what would happen if he was never an a**?
we'd totally be out of weird comments
and assumptions thats hes having a bromance with my friends nick and luke- i guess you could call it a threesome- lol
out of nerdy comments that are some how associated with physics which i do not understand
we would be out of a grammar nazi- i know sad day
and we wouldnt have someone that hates talking about politics soo much that he will "Talk Politics to me, and I'll punch you in the FACE!"
and i guess you could say that if he wasnt an a** he wouldnt be the same person, might not be involve in music with all of us weirdos, and probably wouldnt be drum major! - scandalous!!
goodness this is getting serious!
i guess one good thing would be that if he wasnt hanging around with music kids he wouldnt be associated with my friend rylee and i guess then i wouldnt be their mexican maid named hooolia and then i wouldnt ever have to get them lemonade- inside story/joke
but any way if he wasnt an a** i couldnt glare at him when he made a mean comment and then what would i do in my free time!?!!
but if he wasnt an a** i guess he wouldnt exist because he'd just be alex not quigs
we probably wouldnt be friends
and we'd have someone else as drum major
and who knows what our season would be like then?
so i guess having quiggles being an a** is an essential part
maybe he should just stay the way he is
or maybe he could be nicer- just throwing that out there
but hes fine for a friend
and theres nothing i can change about him
dang it!
-kidding :)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
super woman
ok let me just start off by saying
this is not about the superwoman in the comic books with the itty bitty waist, vivacious curves and long brown hair
plus the tiny tighter than skin suit she loves to wear
and guys favorite part
the gargantuan boobs
but this is NOT and let me repeat NOT about super woman - had to repeat not or else the guys would only be thinking about her boobs for the entire part of this blog
no this is about the everyday girl
the one across the street or next door that you love and adore
is about their inner strenght
the real people that they are
have you ever really seriously thought about what really separates women and men
one chromosome
we have two X's instead of an X and a Y
technically we are just like men except for that one chromosome
so what really irks me is that so many social boundaries have been made because of this one freaking chromosome (sorry mom i said freaking)
women and men are night and day
we both have strengths and weaknesses
what society doesnt realize is that we cant just focus on a mans strengths for us to proceed
we need women
just like we need the sun to shine
we are esential
theres a reason why god made women bear children
we can handle it
- except for that one guy- but were excluding him
have you noticed that because of women our society has moved forward faster
it all started with the suffragist movements in the early 20th century
thanks to alice paul and many other women the world saw women not as their wives and bearers of their children but as members, people that had a voice and were willing to do anything to have it be heard.
women have broken down social boundaries left and right
rosa parks- she was one of the people to start the ball rolling for equal rights for african americans
marian anderson- in 1939 the DAR refused to let her sing in DC's constitution hall because she was black. first lady eleanor roosevelt resigned from the DAR and her husbands administration arranged an outdoor concert at the lincoln memorial for a crowd of 75,000 and millions of radio listeners. she was the first african american to sing with the metropolitan opera and in 1958 became a delegate to the UN
mother teresa- do you think any of what she accomplished could hav been as sucessful, if she hadnt done it.
amelia earhart- she showed up all those pilots- need i say more
marie curie- she won two yes two nobel peace prizes- she discovered two elements! holy cow!
margaret thatcher- first female prime minister for britain
annie oakley- shes one tough chick
eleanor roosevelt- do you think any other first ladies ever were more involved until she came along?
nope
JK Rowling- come on who hasnt read her books? shes inspirational!
Barbara streisand- she refused to get a nose job when someone told her she had to to be a star. shes famous! ha ha
Helen Keller- she had everything against her and yet she still conquered and inspired the world
all of these women were strong smart and used their brains not their looks to get where they wanted to go
they aspired to be something more and they were
they acheived their dreams and persevered
<3
none of them were sex symbols
did you notice that?
they used their brain not their body to change the world
ok so marilyn monroe was famous but really did she change the world like these women?
no
ok so maybe she influence some kennedy's but not really
see heres the problem with our society
were all really superficial
we focus too much on fitting in and to fit in we have to be sexually active
isnt that crazy?
having sex just to fit in
i think its just wrong
because if a person only loves you for the sex then they are wayy below what your standards are
you deserve so much better
girls dress in over revealing clothing to show off their curves
have you seen how freakishly tiny prom dresses are
its like "i'm going to have just enough fabric to cover all the necessary areas and thats all i need"
girls all think that they have to wear all the designer clothing and show everything to get noticed
when really its totally opposite
if you really want a relationship then you need to be with some one whos not as shallow as what your bra size is
ok i'll admit it i do have a victoria secret bra and it looks great but i dont show off everything
its just not necessary
i mean if a guy only likes you for your rack- hes not worth your time
sure looks are part of a relationship- who does love going out with a dreamy guy?- but to make it last you have to look beyond it
and if your stressing about being a size zero because you think thats the only way guys will like you then you are seriously mistaken
believe it or not i'm actually a size 7 or 8
plenty of people are larger or smaller then me
and if you look healthy and glowing you'll attract guys better that way
you are so much prettier then what you wear
if he doesnt like you for who you are throught thick and thin
no matter what happens
he still isnt worth your time
women are usually the "smarter" gender of our society
we have the capacity to love unconditionally
we have minds
we have hearts
we think in color
not black, white and gray
my mom says "if women ruled the world we wouldnt have wars"
which i think is totally true
women wouldnt intentionally send their babies off to war
<3
love yourself for who you are and the world will change for you, if you are so sure about who you are then the world cant do anything to change that. then it will give and change
the greatest love stories were not about how the other person looked like- that would get really old quickly. if all it was about was that the other person was hot.
it was about who the other person was
and how beautiful they were on the inside
we all have insecurities
we all have parts of us we'd rather not have
we all wish we were the "it girl"
we have wacko families
we all have happily ever afters
we all want prince charming
we all want to be accepted
we all want to be able to dance in the light
god made you how he wanted you to be
dont be fake
be yourself
thats the best advice i can give
and the world
WILL CHANGE FOR YOU
your gorgeous
you are unique
you are original
you are dazzling
you are lovely
you are classic
you are genuine
you are real
you are true
you are glittery
you are you
you have flaws
so what!
we all do
but your going to love yourself anyway
your perfect in my eyes
and if people can accept that then you are way better then them
and they dont belong in your life
you are one of a kind
dont copy
make your own path
i have a bumper sticker that says "women who did what they were told never made history"
<3
so prove them all wrong
love who you want to love
show up the world
you are you and there is nothing they can do about it
"you are you, which is truer than true, and there is no one truer then you"
remeber that!
be your own super woman
and some day you WILL change the world
you are perfect to me
so show me what you got!
and i will cheer you on the entire way if your doing what you love
love yourself and the world will too
love- its how the world changes- one woman at a time
<3 always
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this is not about the superwoman in the comic books with the itty bitty waist, vivacious curves and long brown hair
plus the tiny tighter than skin suit she loves to wear
and guys favorite part
the gargantuan boobs
but this is NOT and let me repeat NOT about super woman - had to repeat not or else the guys would only be thinking about her boobs for the entire part of this blog
no this is about the everyday girl
the one across the street or next door that you love and adore
is about their inner strenght
the real people that they are
have you ever really seriously thought about what really separates women and men
one chromosome
we have two X's instead of an X and a Y
technically we are just like men except for that one chromosome
so what really irks me is that so many social boundaries have been made because of this one freaking chromosome (sorry mom i said freaking)
women and men are night and day
we both have strengths and weaknesses
what society doesnt realize is that we cant just focus on a mans strengths for us to proceed
we need women
just like we need the sun to shine
we are esential
theres a reason why god made women bear children
we can handle it
- except for that one guy- but were excluding him
have you noticed that because of women our society has moved forward faster
it all started with the suffragist movements in the early 20th century
thanks to alice paul and many other women the world saw women not as their wives and bearers of their children but as members, people that had a voice and were willing to do anything to have it be heard.
women have broken down social boundaries left and right
rosa parks- she was one of the people to start the ball rolling for equal rights for african americans
marian anderson- in 1939 the DAR refused to let her sing in DC's constitution hall because she was black. first lady eleanor roosevelt resigned from the DAR and her husbands administration arranged an outdoor concert at the lincoln memorial for a crowd of 75,000 and millions of radio listeners. she was the first african american to sing with the metropolitan opera and in 1958 became a delegate to the UN
mother teresa- do you think any of what she accomplished could hav been as sucessful, if she hadnt done it.
amelia earhart- she showed up all those pilots- need i say more
marie curie- she won two yes two nobel peace prizes- she discovered two elements! holy cow!
margaret thatcher- first female prime minister for britain
annie oakley- shes one tough chick
eleanor roosevelt- do you think any other first ladies ever were more involved until she came along?
nope
JK Rowling- come on who hasnt read her books? shes inspirational!
Barbara streisand- she refused to get a nose job when someone told her she had to to be a star. shes famous! ha ha
Helen Keller- she had everything against her and yet she still conquered and inspired the world
all of these women were strong smart and used their brains not their looks to get where they wanted to go
they aspired to be something more and they were
they acheived their dreams and persevered
<3
none of them were sex symbols
did you notice that?
they used their brain not their body to change the world
ok so marilyn monroe was famous but really did she change the world like these women?
no
ok so maybe she influence some kennedy's but not really
see heres the problem with our society
were all really superficial
we focus too much on fitting in and to fit in we have to be sexually active
isnt that crazy?
having sex just to fit in
i think its just wrong
because if a person only loves you for the sex then they are wayy below what your standards are
you deserve so much better
girls dress in over revealing clothing to show off their curves
have you seen how freakishly tiny prom dresses are
its like "i'm going to have just enough fabric to cover all the necessary areas and thats all i need"
girls all think that they have to wear all the designer clothing and show everything to get noticed
when really its totally opposite
if you really want a relationship then you need to be with some one whos not as shallow as what your bra size is
ok i'll admit it i do have a victoria secret bra and it looks great but i dont show off everything
its just not necessary
i mean if a guy only likes you for your rack- hes not worth your time
sure looks are part of a relationship- who does love going out with a dreamy guy?- but to make it last you have to look beyond it
and if your stressing about being a size zero because you think thats the only way guys will like you then you are seriously mistaken
believe it or not i'm actually a size 7 or 8
plenty of people are larger or smaller then me
and if you look healthy and glowing you'll attract guys better that way
you are so much prettier then what you wear
if he doesnt like you for who you are throught thick and thin
no matter what happens
he still isnt worth your time
women are usually the "smarter" gender of our society
we have the capacity to love unconditionally
we have minds
we have hearts
we think in color
not black, white and gray
my mom says "if women ruled the world we wouldnt have wars"
which i think is totally true
women wouldnt intentionally send their babies off to war
<3
love yourself for who you are and the world will change for you, if you are so sure about who you are then the world cant do anything to change that. then it will give and change
the greatest love stories were not about how the other person looked like- that would get really old quickly. if all it was about was that the other person was hot.
it was about who the other person was
and how beautiful they were on the inside
we all have insecurities
we all have parts of us we'd rather not have
we all wish we were the "it girl"
we have wacko families
we all have happily ever afters
we all want prince charming
we all want to be accepted
we all want to be able to dance in the light
god made you how he wanted you to be
dont be fake
be yourself
thats the best advice i can give
and the world
WILL CHANGE FOR YOU
your gorgeous
you are unique
you are original
you are dazzling
you are lovely
you are classic
you are genuine
you are real
you are true
you are glittery
you are you
you have flaws
so what!
we all do
but your going to love yourself anyway
your perfect in my eyes
and if people can accept that then you are way better then them
and they dont belong in your life
you are one of a kind
dont copy
make your own path
i have a bumper sticker that says "women who did what they were told never made history"
<3
so prove them all wrong
love who you want to love
show up the world
you are you and there is nothing they can do about it
"you are you, which is truer than true, and there is no one truer then you"
remeber that!
be your own super woman
and some day you WILL change the world
you are perfect to me
so show me what you got!
and i will cheer you on the entire way if your doing what you love
love yourself and the world will too
love- its how the world changes- one woman at a time
<3 always
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Monday, June 27, 2011
tough issues- what i would do- if i had one week to live
so heres another suggestion from another one of my good friends on facebook
"What would you do if you only had 1 week to live?"
well me being the person i am i wouldnt just sit around and mope
heres a list of what i would do
1- skydiving- i hear its amazing and quite frankly i want to finally be able to say i have for the last few days
2- kiss alex pettyfer- hes the star of i am number 4- hes TO. DIE . FOR
3-eat the hottest chile pepper which is the infinit pepper. which is exactly 1,382,118 Scoville Heat Units (SHU) - i have no idea what those are
4- go to carnegie hall and just play and soak it all in. nobody has to be there.i just want to sit and enjoy
5- i want to break a guiness world record
6- get back at all the boys who have ever broken my heart
7- got to verona italy- its where romeo and juliet first met :)
8- then fall in love with my romeo
9- buy a duck and name it puddles
10- climb a volcano
11- marvel at something
12- go to india and have legitimate indian food
13- eat a crossaint on top of the eiffel tower
14- then pee on the eiffel tower- they have a restroom up there!
15- take a long walk on a beach
16- go cliff diving
17- tell everybody who pisses me off how i actually feel about them
18- be in a music video
19- go bungee jumping
20- go to new york
21- see then northern lights
22- hike everest
23- be in a nudist colony- i dont really want to be a nudist- i just want to see how it is to talk to someone totally naked :)
24- go skinny dipping
25- then get caught
26- go to rio de janero for carnival
27- learn belly dancing
28- eat until i about explode
29- go to the olympics
30- go to africa
31- go through the drive thru on a scooter or something other then a car
32- kiss in the rain- i have no idea why i'm intersted - maybe theres something magical about the rain
33- i want to scare someone so much they pee their pants :)
34- i want to egg/ fork/toilet paper a house
35- legitimately slap someone for being a jerk
36- be in a flash mob
37- go to stone henge for the summer solstice
38- get lost in a field of sun flowers
39- have 500$ and a few good friends and see how far it takes us
40- then go road tripping where ever we think sounds cool
41- study abrod
42- design an entire room/house just the way i want it to be, nobody is going to tell me i'm wrong
43- go to a club
44- photo copy my butt :)
45- pull an all nighter
46- cuss out my first kiss
47-then kick him where it hurts
48- then laugh as he crumples to the ground
49- swim in a public fountain
50-live
51- carve my initials into a tree
52- go on the vomitron
53- watch all of the lord of the rings movies
54- recreated the kiss- you know the victory in japan day one- ok the one with the sailor and the nurse- i have a t- shirt
55-have a street named after me
56- solve a rubiks cube
57- paint my nails each a different color
58- prank call someone
59- gorilla glue quarters to a side walk
60- say "i love you" and actually mean it
61- have a legitimate pillow fight
62-see the galapagos archapelago
63-visit the fjords of norway
64- visit the sagrada familia in bilbao spain
65-go to the day of the dead in mexico
66-go all the way on route 66
67-read every book that has won a pulitzer prize
68-cut the ribbon at a major opening event
69-swim in the amazon river, and see the pink dolphins
70-do the running of the bulls
71-shop at harrods
72-learn to pogo stick well
73-sleep in a castle
74- volunteer to be a disney princess at disney world or land. that would be soo cool
75-become a vlogger
76- shop until i drop
77-shake hands with the pope
78-go kite surfing
79-learn latin
80- have a date to my senior prom
81- purchase a coach bag
82- adopt a pet from an animal shelter
83-appologize to everyone i have ever lied
84-eat fugu- japanese pufferfish
85-get married
86-travel all over europe for my honey moon
87-have kids
88- get grandkids
89-become a god parent
90-learn to salsa dance
91-go to a costume party, in a legitimate costumr
92-visit the pyramids
93-explore new york all by myself
94-preform at a poetry slam
95-live
96-laugh
97-love
98-fly
99-do what i love
100-live for today
ok jon so heres what i want to do
who knows if it will all happen but thats what i want to do
i'll live up my last week and make it EPIC!
enjoy
<3
- be proud mom theres nothing about sex
"What would you do if you only had 1 week to live?"
well me being the person i am i wouldnt just sit around and mope
heres a list of what i would do
1- skydiving- i hear its amazing and quite frankly i want to finally be able to say i have for the last few days
2- kiss alex pettyfer- hes the star of i am number 4- hes TO. DIE . FOR
3-eat the hottest chile pepper which is the infinit pepper. which is exactly 1,382,118 Scoville Heat Units (SHU) - i have no idea what those are
4- go to carnegie hall and just play and soak it all in. nobody has to be there.i just want to sit and enjoy
5- i want to break a guiness world record
6- get back at all the boys who have ever broken my heart
7- got to verona italy- its where romeo and juliet first met :)
8- then fall in love with my romeo
9- buy a duck and name it puddles
10- climb a volcano
11- marvel at something
12- go to india and have legitimate indian food
13- eat a crossaint on top of the eiffel tower
14- then pee on the eiffel tower- they have a restroom up there!
15- take a long walk on a beach
16- go cliff diving
17- tell everybody who pisses me off how i actually feel about them
18- be in a music video
19- go bungee jumping
20- go to new york
21- see then northern lights
22- hike everest
23- be in a nudist colony- i dont really want to be a nudist- i just want to see how it is to talk to someone totally naked :)
24- go skinny dipping
25- then get caught
26- go to rio de janero for carnival
27- learn belly dancing
28- eat until i about explode
29- go to the olympics
30- go to africa
31- go through the drive thru on a scooter or something other then a car
32- kiss in the rain- i have no idea why i'm intersted - maybe theres something magical about the rain
33- i want to scare someone so much they pee their pants :)
34- i want to egg/ fork/toilet paper a house
35- legitimately slap someone for being a jerk
36- be in a flash mob
37- go to stone henge for the summer solstice
38- get lost in a field of sun flowers
39- have 500$ and a few good friends and see how far it takes us
40- then go road tripping where ever we think sounds cool
41- study abrod
42- design an entire room/house just the way i want it to be, nobody is going to tell me i'm wrong
43- go to a club
44- photo copy my butt :)
45- pull an all nighter
46- cuss out my first kiss
47-then kick him where it hurts
48- then laugh as he crumples to the ground
49- swim in a public fountain
50-live
51- carve my initials into a tree
52- go on the vomitron
53- watch all of the lord of the rings movies
54- recreated the kiss- you know the victory in japan day one- ok the one with the sailor and the nurse- i have a t- shirt
55-have a street named after me
56- solve a rubiks cube
57- paint my nails each a different color
58- prank call someone
59- gorilla glue quarters to a side walk
60- say "i love you" and actually mean it
61- have a legitimate pillow fight
62-see the galapagos archapelago
63-visit the fjords of norway
64- visit the sagrada familia in bilbao spain
65-go to the day of the dead in mexico
66-go all the way on route 66
67-read every book that has won a pulitzer prize
68-cut the ribbon at a major opening event
69-swim in the amazon river, and see the pink dolphins
70-do the running of the bulls
71-shop at harrods
72-learn to pogo stick well
73-sleep in a castle
74- volunteer to be a disney princess at disney world or land. that would be soo cool
75-become a vlogger
76- shop until i drop
77-shake hands with the pope
78-go kite surfing
79-learn latin
80- have a date to my senior prom
81- purchase a coach bag
82- adopt a pet from an animal shelter
83-appologize to everyone i have ever lied
84-eat fugu- japanese pufferfish
85-get married
86-travel all over europe for my honey moon
87-have kids
88- get grandkids
89-become a god parent
90-learn to salsa dance
91-go to a costume party, in a legitimate costumr
92-visit the pyramids
93-explore new york all by myself
94-preform at a poetry slam
95-live
96-laugh
97-love
98-fly
99-do what i love
100-live for today
ok jon so heres what i want to do
who knows if it will all happen but thats what i want to do
i'll live up my last week and make it EPIC!
enjoy
<3
- be proud mom theres nothing about sex
tough issues- what i would do- coma 50% chance to live... or die
so i'm starting a new sort of segment
you give me a topic/ scenerio/ what have you
and i'll give you my point of view
so give me it your best shot!
so i asked friends on facebook to shoot me ideas
and heres one i got from one of my good friends
"If you were in a coma with a 50% chance of waking up, would you want someone to pull the plug or see if you will come through?"
my honest thoughts here
ok so if the situation was that i had just gone into a coma i'd say if i could
"hold on! i'm a fighter, i'll get out of this"
i'm the type of person who fights
i try and fail and fight for everything
but after a few months and there was grim hope i'd say
"let me go. i'm not living a life on a bed . let me go live another life in another world"
from my info off of wikipedia after 4 months in a coma theres a 15% chance you'll pull out of it
and an even lower chance you'll fully recover
if it was looking really grim i would have my family pull the plug
like if it was affecting their lives. if it was becoming a burden on my family i would say do it
so theres my opinion on what i would do
enjoy paige :)
you give me a topic/ scenerio/ what have you
and i'll give you my point of view
so give me it your best shot!
so i asked friends on facebook to shoot me ideas
and heres one i got from one of my good friends
"If you were in a coma with a 50% chance of waking up, would you want someone to pull the plug or see if you will come through?"
my honest thoughts here
ok so if the situation was that i had just gone into a coma i'd say if i could
"hold on! i'm a fighter, i'll get out of this"
i'm the type of person who fights
i try and fail and fight for everything
but after a few months and there was grim hope i'd say
"let me go. i'm not living a life on a bed . let me go live another life in another world"
from my info off of wikipedia after 4 months in a coma theres a 15% chance you'll pull out of it
and an even lower chance you'll fully recover
if it was looking really grim i would have my family pull the plug
like if it was affecting their lives. if it was becoming a burden on my family i would say do it
so theres my opinion on what i would do
enjoy paige :)
Friday, June 24, 2011
feet and turtles
so as brought you by popular demand
i am writing a blog about feet...... and turtles
you had better read it rylee and connor!
so to start off
FEET
the one thing my sister hates more then anything! she hates my feet for some odd reason, like she says my toes look weird or something. i think i have pretty normal feet.
sure my second toe is a teeny tiny eeny weeny bit taller then my big toe but thats nothing to freak about.
she really really hates when i stick my feet in her face :) ha ha
but alot can go wrong with feet
such as bunions, athletes foot, ingrown toenails, mortons neuroma, plantar fasciitis, plantar warts,webbed feet,-wouldnt that be really cool to have webbed feet? you would have flippers and could swim really fast, but flip flops might be interesting- and stress fractures.
AND
there are genetic disorders as well- fantastic
so there are flat feet or club feet
and then there are animal feet
soft feet which mammals have
and hard feet which are hooves
- i found all of this all on wikipedia :)
little family secret
my mom says that if owen- my older brother who has the opinion about me and boys- so if he ever tries to enter the military my mom will and i quote say
"he has flat feet, wets the bed :) and is gay"
he is none of those of course
he doest not have flat feeet
does not wet the bed- that i'm aware of
and is not gay- i love his girlfriend
and apparently feet can be attractive
like this one guy on the bachelorette was in love with the girls feet- he was just inlove with them- it was weird!
normal people find other peoples eyes, body or sometimes even lips which i dont understand attractive
i find the eyes are the best- pretty eyes make the world better
oh and there is the foot which is a unit of measure
12 inches people
ok and the counter part of this blog
TURTLES
you know those creatures that sometimes look like slow moving rocks
my family actually owns two yes two box turtles
ones name is shelly- i know so original
and ones name is angus- dont ask
they just kind of sit there
eat their food
and swim in their thing- i dont know what to call their water bowl- i guess a pool
so this is how wikipedia sums them up
turtles - are reptiles of the order Testudines (the crown group of the superorder Chelonia), characterised by a special bony or cartilaginous shell developed from their ribs that acts as a shield. "Turtle" may either refer to the Testudines as a whole, or to particular Testudines which make up a form taxon that is not monophyletic—see also sea turtle, terrapin, tortoise, and the discussion below.
isnt that a lot of words you dont know anything or care about?!?
so pretty much you know everything you need to know about a turtle
the earliest relatives of turtles were 215 MILLION yes MILLION years ago
thats a long time ago
they must be doing something right
there are big turtles that are well GIGANTIC
and tiny turtles that you can fit in your hand
but whats common is that they are all slow
you'd be slow too if you had to carry your house on your back
i dont get people who name their turtle flash or zippy or some other word to mean fast
because its ironic
and kind of mean
because they will never live up to their name of being flash or zippy
and who would want to be named something like that, just an adjective, not a real name
well i have no room to talk with my turtles named shelly and angus
apparently they enjoy doing races against pompist hares
actually its a tortoise but they come from the same family
maybe turtles have something right about how to live life
take it slow
check out the view
show up hares that think they are all that
have your house on your back- i guess that kind of makes them like refugees or something -because they move all the time with their houses
eat bugs, grasses or what ever comes along your path
and hide when someone dangerous comes by
but as soon as you find out they are not scary, scare them half to death by turning from a rock to a turtle
wouldnt that scare you too?
ok i proved that i can write about feet and turtles
be happy with it
oh and slow and steady always wins the race
words to live by
<3
i am writing a blog about feet...... and turtles
you had better read it rylee and connor!
so to start off
FEET
the one thing my sister hates more then anything! she hates my feet for some odd reason, like she says my toes look weird or something. i think i have pretty normal feet.
sure my second toe is a teeny tiny eeny weeny bit taller then my big toe but thats nothing to freak about.
she really really hates when i stick my feet in her face :) ha ha
but alot can go wrong with feet
such as bunions, athletes foot, ingrown toenails, mortons neuroma, plantar fasciitis, plantar warts,webbed feet,-wouldnt that be really cool to have webbed feet? you would have flippers and could swim really fast, but flip flops might be interesting- and stress fractures.
AND
there are genetic disorders as well- fantastic
so there are flat feet or club feet
and then there are animal feet
soft feet which mammals have
and hard feet which are hooves
- i found all of this all on wikipedia :)
little family secret
my mom says that if owen- my older brother who has the opinion about me and boys- so if he ever tries to enter the military my mom will and i quote say
"he has flat feet, wets the bed :) and is gay"
he is none of those of course
he doest not have flat feeet
does not wet the bed- that i'm aware of
and is not gay- i love his girlfriend
and apparently feet can be attractive
like this one guy on the bachelorette was in love with the girls feet- he was just inlove with them- it was weird!
normal people find other peoples eyes, body or sometimes even lips which i dont understand attractive
i find the eyes are the best- pretty eyes make the world better
oh and there is the foot which is a unit of measure
12 inches people
ok and the counter part of this blog
TURTLES
you know those creatures that sometimes look like slow moving rocks
my family actually owns two yes two box turtles
ones name is shelly- i know so original
and ones name is angus- dont ask
they just kind of sit there
eat their food
and swim in their thing- i dont know what to call their water bowl- i guess a pool
so this is how wikipedia sums them up
turtles - are reptiles of the order Testudines (the crown group of the superorder Chelonia), characterised by a special bony or cartilaginous shell developed from their ribs that acts as a shield. "Turtle" may either refer to the Testudines as a whole, or to particular Testudines which make up a form taxon that is not monophyletic—see also sea turtle, terrapin, tortoise, and the discussion below.
isnt that a lot of words you dont know anything or care about?!?
so pretty much you know everything you need to know about a turtle
the earliest relatives of turtles were 215 MILLION yes MILLION years ago
thats a long time ago
they must be doing something right
there are big turtles that are well GIGANTIC
and tiny turtles that you can fit in your hand
but whats common is that they are all slow
you'd be slow too if you had to carry your house on your back
i dont get people who name their turtle flash or zippy or some other word to mean fast
because its ironic
and kind of mean
because they will never live up to their name of being flash or zippy
and who would want to be named something like that, just an adjective, not a real name
well i have no room to talk with my turtles named shelly and angus
apparently they enjoy doing races against pompist hares
actually its a tortoise but they come from the same family
maybe turtles have something right about how to live life
take it slow
check out the view
show up hares that think they are all that
have your house on your back- i guess that kind of makes them like refugees or something -because they move all the time with their houses
eat bugs, grasses or what ever comes along your path
and hide when someone dangerous comes by
but as soon as you find out they are not scary, scare them half to death by turning from a rock to a turtle
wouldnt that scare you too?
ok i proved that i can write about feet and turtles
be happy with it
oh and slow and steady always wins the race
words to live by
<3
Thursday, June 16, 2011
born this way
believe it or not this blog post is named after the lady gaga song.
hey its a great song with a great message so dont even think about judging.
ok so heres the gist
wow i just realized i begin alot of these that way
so over these past few weeks i've really tried to see who i was.
i've always been compared to other people.
one of the volzke children
owens sister
claires hot big sister- no i didnt pay them to say that
that middle child
ive realized from being the middle child its really difficult
being the first has its advantages. your the learning child so you can really do anything. ex- stand on your baby sisters chest when shes 2 months old and has had heart surgery- yep he did that- mom doesnt think i could breathe- i think he was trying to kill me- ha! i'm still here : )
being the middle, your parents have learned from their "mistakes" (i'd call it fun) and now are implenting the actions on you. so you cant get away with anything
being the third, they've already dealt with two so they let you slide since they have bigger fish to fry. ex- owens asthma, julias heart condition, school. the only disadvantage is that you get drug around everywhere
so i'm stuck forever in the middle of this wacko trio of siblings.-fantastic
if it were up to me i'd totally be the oldest. your the learning child. and also the star of the family. so i have to live up to a star. which i'm not going to lie kinda sucks.
unfortunantly after all these years i'm still compared to owen AND I'M 17
will people finally realize that i AM NOT OWEN!! we look nothing alike. hes blonde, i'm brunette(ish). hes blue eyed , i'm brown. hes nerdy, i'm not. hes kinda mean, i'm a social butterfly. hes lucky, i try to be. thank goodness i'm not compared to my little sister or else i'd really be screwed.
people have told me over the years "you dont need to be him, be yourself". i didnt realize that i could finally step out and be myself until today.
i found out my friends are having a party and i was not invited (yep i found out). and my mom wouldnt let me go sit with a friend during his chemo because "i'm afraid you'll get lost" - i had turn by turn directions from my house to the hospital with a map.
so today i was fed up with pleasing people
i was fed up with people thinking i couldnt do something and lying to my face
i was tired of people doubting me
so i did something scandalous
ok it wasnt scandalous but it was different then my usual personality
i dolled myself up (wow! i know i can do that), told my sister i was going to the mall and i did
i went to the mall all by myself all because i wanted to.
no reason but that i felt like it
its my life so why not live it
also we are redoing my room so we've been looking at stuff and i have ideas. and my mom being the person she is, is putting her 2 cents in. actually its more like 30
but i've decided today that its my room and i have to live with it until i'm tired of it.
i have a theme in mind and i'll make my room all my own
i am original
i am unique
i am different
i am unusual
i am special
i am singular
this is who i am
i am quirky, i make mistakes, i cant keep a boyfriend for very long, i write blogs about my life, i love peppermint, i play the bassoon and am part of the marchingband at my highschool which i adore, i love words- ones with odd meanings make my day, i am a daddys girl, i am not completely sure if i believe in a god that lives in heaven, but i do go to church as a guidline for life,how to live my life -oh wow thats the first time i've ever admited that outside of my head- , i think of grand come backs in my head and they never seem to come out how i planned. i cant argue, i am not perfect
this is who i am
and if you cant accept that
that i was born this way
then your not worth my time
so deal with it
oh and dont forget- i'm on the right track, baby i was born this way hey!
<3
hey its a great song with a great message so dont even think about judging.
ok so heres the gist
wow i just realized i begin alot of these that way
so over these past few weeks i've really tried to see who i was.
i've always been compared to other people.
one of the volzke children
owens sister
claires hot big sister- no i didnt pay them to say that
that middle child
ive realized from being the middle child its really difficult
being the first has its advantages. your the learning child so you can really do anything. ex- stand on your baby sisters chest when shes 2 months old and has had heart surgery- yep he did that- mom doesnt think i could breathe- i think he was trying to kill me- ha! i'm still here : )
being the middle, your parents have learned from their "mistakes" (i'd call it fun) and now are implenting the actions on you. so you cant get away with anything
being the third, they've already dealt with two so they let you slide since they have bigger fish to fry. ex- owens asthma, julias heart condition, school. the only disadvantage is that you get drug around everywhere
so i'm stuck forever in the middle of this wacko trio of siblings.-fantastic
if it were up to me i'd totally be the oldest. your the learning child. and also the star of the family. so i have to live up to a star. which i'm not going to lie kinda sucks.
unfortunantly after all these years i'm still compared to owen AND I'M 17
will people finally realize that i AM NOT OWEN!! we look nothing alike. hes blonde, i'm brunette(ish). hes blue eyed , i'm brown. hes nerdy, i'm not. hes kinda mean, i'm a social butterfly. hes lucky, i try to be. thank goodness i'm not compared to my little sister or else i'd really be screwed.
people have told me over the years "you dont need to be him, be yourself". i didnt realize that i could finally step out and be myself until today.
i found out my friends are having a party and i was not invited (yep i found out). and my mom wouldnt let me go sit with a friend during his chemo because "i'm afraid you'll get lost" - i had turn by turn directions from my house to the hospital with a map.
so today i was fed up with pleasing people
i was fed up with people thinking i couldnt do something and lying to my face
i was tired of people doubting me
so i did something scandalous
ok it wasnt scandalous but it was different then my usual personality
i dolled myself up (wow! i know i can do that), told my sister i was going to the mall and i did
i went to the mall all by myself all because i wanted to.
no reason but that i felt like it
its my life so why not live it
also we are redoing my room so we've been looking at stuff and i have ideas. and my mom being the person she is, is putting her 2 cents in. actually its more like 30
but i've decided today that its my room and i have to live with it until i'm tired of it.
i have a theme in mind and i'll make my room all my own
i am original
i am unique
i am different
i am unusual
i am special
i am singular
this is who i am
i am quirky, i make mistakes, i cant keep a boyfriend for very long, i write blogs about my life, i love peppermint, i play the bassoon and am part of the marchingband at my highschool which i adore, i love words- ones with odd meanings make my day, i am a daddys girl, i am not completely sure if i believe in a god that lives in heaven, but i do go to church as a guidline for life,how to live my life -oh wow thats the first time i've ever admited that outside of my head- , i think of grand come backs in my head and they never seem to come out how i planned. i cant argue, i am not perfect
this is who i am
and if you cant accept that
that i was born this way
then your not worth my time
so deal with it
oh and dont forget- i'm on the right track, baby i was born this way hey!
<3
Monday, May 23, 2011
what my family thinks about me and boys-yippee
so my family
got to love them
they are crazy
and lets just say due to the title is that they have an opinion on my current relationship status
which is single
mind you my boyfriend and i of one month - its a record-i know sad-just broke up about two weeks ago
i'm fine and we are back to being good friends
but my family thinks that just because i cant seem to acquire a relationship with a guy -i think- that they think something is wrong with me
which i'm totally sure
ok but heres the gist
i have had technically three boyfriends
kissed two boys
only one of which was a technical boyfriend- long story
and sure they all ended fairly quickly but i dont care, i lived and learned from them
and now they are all good friends with me
except that first kiss guy.....yeah
but anyway my family being a huge and i mean HUGE part of my life thinks that just because i'm not in a commited relationship that i feel that they think there is something wrong with me.
mind you i'm only 17. i'm very new to this whole dating thing. i have been hurt so why go thru it again. and besides usually it just ends badly or most of the time it ends where were friends. and i guess i'm a decent girl. i just have no experience in this field. the more i try things the better i am. and i have not had many chances to try stuff in this department.
so heres what my family thinks about what i should do about my boy dilemma (mind you most of these assumptions on what i should do are thought up by my brother. and my brother being the normal older brother he is, is a bit mean) so heres what they think i should do
1st- i should be lesbian
2nd- i should become a nun
3rd- i should be the crazy cat lady that knits all the time
here are my problems on these assumptions
1st one- lesbian
let me just start by saying that i love gay people and i have nothing against them.i think its fine to find love whether it be with the opposite or same sex. its love no matter what. any who...... i cant be lesbian! i just cant! my brothers rational with coming up with this idea is that since i have no luck with guys i should try the other team. i would honestly rather hang out with guys. they are so much more fun and all the time really genuine. girls are mean! i like the differences in guys and girls. opposites attract :)
2nd one- nun
no way! ok i'm religious but i'm christian not catholic (and i'm not those christians that say your going to hell if you dont believe the same as we do. were laid back.) i could never kneel all day and be so commited to something. i'm pretty sure i have some small form of ADD or ADHD so i my attention span wouldnt be that long. i'd get bored very very quickly
3rd one- crazy cat lady that knits all the time
ok this one only recently came up because i just recently- as in today- took up knitting to keep my hands busy. and knitting is fun and all but i couldnt do it all day. and i hate cats. ok well i dont hate them i just very much prefer dogs. they are loyal and loving and will never leave you alone. and they are soft and adorable. and come in all sizes. and oddly enough when i think of the crazy cat lady i get an image of the crazy cat lady on the simpsons that launches her cats at you. and i dont want to be her. do you know the ammount of upper body strength that takes to launch those cats so far? lol. i'd go crazy
so heres what my family thinks
and i think they are mean- ok well mostly my brother- and wrong
i will find my prince charming-hopefully- one day-maybe
and i will show them!
ha ha
or i'll just be the crazy cat lady that knits all the time
and have amazing biceps from launching cats at people
yes!
got to love them
they are crazy
and lets just say due to the title is that they have an opinion on my current relationship status
which is single
mind you my boyfriend and i of one month - its a record-i know sad-just broke up about two weeks ago
i'm fine and we are back to being good friends
but my family thinks that just because i cant seem to acquire a relationship with a guy -i think- that they think something is wrong with me
which i'm totally sure
ok but heres the gist
i have had technically three boyfriends
kissed two boys
only one of which was a technical boyfriend- long story
and sure they all ended fairly quickly but i dont care, i lived and learned from them
and now they are all good friends with me
except that first kiss guy.....yeah
but anyway my family being a huge and i mean HUGE part of my life thinks that just because i'm not in a commited relationship that i feel that they think there is something wrong with me.
mind you i'm only 17. i'm very new to this whole dating thing. i have been hurt so why go thru it again. and besides usually it just ends badly or most of the time it ends where were friends. and i guess i'm a decent girl. i just have no experience in this field. the more i try things the better i am. and i have not had many chances to try stuff in this department.
so heres what my family thinks about what i should do about my boy dilemma (mind you most of these assumptions on what i should do are thought up by my brother. and my brother being the normal older brother he is, is a bit mean) so heres what they think i should do
1st- i should be lesbian
2nd- i should become a nun
3rd- i should be the crazy cat lady that knits all the time
here are my problems on these assumptions
1st one- lesbian
let me just start by saying that i love gay people and i have nothing against them.i think its fine to find love whether it be with the opposite or same sex. its love no matter what. any who...... i cant be lesbian! i just cant! my brothers rational with coming up with this idea is that since i have no luck with guys i should try the other team. i would honestly rather hang out with guys. they are so much more fun and all the time really genuine. girls are mean! i like the differences in guys and girls. opposites attract :)
2nd one- nun
no way! ok i'm religious but i'm christian not catholic (and i'm not those christians that say your going to hell if you dont believe the same as we do. were laid back.) i could never kneel all day and be so commited to something. i'm pretty sure i have some small form of ADD or ADHD so i my attention span wouldnt be that long. i'd get bored very very quickly
3rd one- crazy cat lady that knits all the time
ok this one only recently came up because i just recently- as in today- took up knitting to keep my hands busy. and knitting is fun and all but i couldnt do it all day. and i hate cats. ok well i dont hate them i just very much prefer dogs. they are loyal and loving and will never leave you alone. and they are soft and adorable. and come in all sizes. and oddly enough when i think of the crazy cat lady i get an image of the crazy cat lady on the simpsons that launches her cats at you. and i dont want to be her. do you know the ammount of upper body strength that takes to launch those cats so far? lol. i'd go crazy
so heres what my family thinks
and i think they are mean- ok well mostly my brother- and wrong
i will find my prince charming-hopefully- one day-maybe
and i will show them!
ha ha
or i'll just be the crazy cat lady that knits all the time
and have amazing biceps from launching cats at people
yes!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Disney is a liar
let me just start by saying that i am a romantic
and then let me say the title of this thing
DISNEY IS A BIG FAT LIAR
it is
really
seriously
honestly and truely
it is
just accept it already
its a liar
as a kid growing up with all the disney princesses. i always wanted to belle or arial or mulan because
first- they werent blonde. (haha)
second- they werent the damsel in distress. they went out and got their prince. instead of sleeping beauty, jasmine, snow white or that one odette chick who just sat there like a bunch of frogs waiting to be kissed. i mean come on! you have to love mulan. she fights off a pack of huns to save her empire. shes pretty BA!
so i'm dreaming about my prince or well guy that would sweep me off my feet and onto his white horse and we would ride off into the sunset. and live happily ever after! the end.
so whats the problem with this story
IT NEVER HAPPENS
at least not to me
not to alot of people
so why do they put these images into little girls head that when they are teenagers they'll find their true love and ride off into the sunset
dont get me wrong i love watching disney princess movies when im down. but they just give you false hope.
its saying that the very first guy you meet that you get the butterflies for will be your prince charming, prince eric, prince philip, flynn rider, aladdin, or shrek.
when really that never works out
so why are we doing this?
why are we telling kids the easter bunny and santa clause are real? (ohh yeah i just blew that one out of the water. if you didnt know, its your mom or dad or legal guardian or whom ever cares for you. not a giant bunny.)
i have no idea!
things that happen like that are few and far between. the first guy you fall for will 99.9999999999999% (thats one in........ hold on......... one in quadrillion chance)of the time will not fall for you as well, and all your left to is just secretly facebook stalking him. (ok i only facebook stalk when i'm bored)
so why do we have this obsession with prince charming? and having him be the first one ever. its all because of disney and there freaking adorable singing bunnies and really hot princes. (i've always had a fantasy about some foreign prince finding me and talking me back to his kingdom).
so lets stop putting this story into our heads when it doesnt ever work!
i doesnt stop with disney. have you seen some adult movies? they are all just like an adult disney movie. boy meets girl. they fall madly inlove. have some difficulties (magic spell, no voice, evil stepmother). botta bing botta boom. everything is solved and they ride off into the sunset. and its a rap.
lets get a different story line please!
i'm getting tired of our unoriginality.
how about some challenges and triumps and THEN find mr right or prince charming?
what about that.
not just the first guy
thanks disney.
you big liar
and then let me say the title of this thing
DISNEY IS A BIG FAT LIAR
it is
really
seriously
honestly and truely
it is
just accept it already
its a liar
as a kid growing up with all the disney princesses. i always wanted to belle or arial or mulan because
first- they werent blonde. (haha)
second- they werent the damsel in distress. they went out and got their prince. instead of sleeping beauty, jasmine, snow white or that one odette chick who just sat there like a bunch of frogs waiting to be kissed. i mean come on! you have to love mulan. she fights off a pack of huns to save her empire. shes pretty BA!
so i'm dreaming about my prince or well guy that would sweep me off my feet and onto his white horse and we would ride off into the sunset. and live happily ever after! the end.
so whats the problem with this story
IT NEVER HAPPENS
at least not to me
not to alot of people
so why do they put these images into little girls head that when they are teenagers they'll find their true love and ride off into the sunset
dont get me wrong i love watching disney princess movies when im down. but they just give you false hope.
its saying that the very first guy you meet that you get the butterflies for will be your prince charming, prince eric, prince philip, flynn rider, aladdin, or shrek.
when really that never works out
so why are we doing this?
why are we telling kids the easter bunny and santa clause are real? (ohh yeah i just blew that one out of the water. if you didnt know, its your mom or dad or legal guardian or whom ever cares for you. not a giant bunny.)
i have no idea!
things that happen like that are few and far between. the first guy you fall for will 99.9999999999999% (thats one in........ hold on......... one in quadrillion chance)of the time will not fall for you as well, and all your left to is just secretly facebook stalking him. (ok i only facebook stalk when i'm bored)
so why do we have this obsession with prince charming? and having him be the first one ever. its all because of disney and there freaking adorable singing bunnies and really hot princes. (i've always had a fantasy about some foreign prince finding me and talking me back to his kingdom).
so lets stop putting this story into our heads when it doesnt ever work!
i doesnt stop with disney. have you seen some adult movies? they are all just like an adult disney movie. boy meets girl. they fall madly inlove. have some difficulties (magic spell, no voice, evil stepmother). botta bing botta boom. everything is solved and they ride off into the sunset. and its a rap.
lets get a different story line please!
i'm getting tired of our unoriginality.
how about some challenges and triumps and THEN find mr right or prince charming?
what about that.
not just the first guy
thanks disney.
you big liar
Friday, May 13, 2011
this fickel weather! / break up week
what is up with this weather!
i mean seriously! the first two days it was GORGEOUS! and then it was complete down pour. and now suddenly its niceish. the old saying is "april showers bring may flowers". but what is this? may showers bring june flowers? thats not right!
come on! i want to break out the sundresses and its making me wear jeans that i'm so tired of! blarg!
any way so this week was decent
my boyfriend and i of just over a month broke up, wait let me check the calendar on my phone...... ok 37 days. which is pretty good i guess. well not really since people i know have been going out for years. wow that takes commitment! like my brother (DARN HIM) and his girlfriend (who i adore) will have been dating for THREE yes THREE years in october! isnt that crazy! they survived their first year of college and they are STILL a couple.
i on the other hand am not as lucky.
i try and fail alot.
i learn things the hard way. unfortunantly.
anyway it was weird for the first few days with out him since we usually spend lunch together but now were talking again and its just like old times when we were just friends :) but what was nice since he is kind of a big guy, all of those annoying guys that try to flirt with me left me alone because they were scared of him. it was great! i half wanted to show i mean have him meet that one annoying kid that i mentioned about in my first blog, so the annoying kid would know not to annoy me any more because there would be *bleep* to pay! ha ha!
we just found out we didnt have any chemistry which is an odd thing to tell a person, let me just tell you that!
anyway i have determined this week as "break up week" because alot of people i know are breaking up. ive only seen one couple get together. one of my best friends and her boyfriend. me and alex. maria schriver and arnold schwarzenegger. i mean what they heck!
apparently this happens all the time. two weeks after prom and people realize that the person they took to prom wasnt exactly who they thought they were and just sort of wanted them for a date and not anything more.so they break up. sad really. but many of those people are going off to college and who wants to be held down by a relationship that just sort of started because you didnt want to be the only person with out a date.part of the reason why we broke up.
relationships are hard.
let me just tell you that.
the longest legitimate relationship i've had was this just recent one and the one before that was exactly 28 days. woohoo i improved by 9 more days with this guy.
i guess i was going out with nick for three months in 7th grade. but we didnt do anything. we just sat on the bus together. i think he might have bought me my ticket to my first middle school dance. i still havent paid him back.... maybe i should do that some day....
i dont understand people who have had like 15 different girlfriends/boyfrineds. that just doesnt make sense! first off- how they heck do you get all those people to like you! oh wait i just thought of it ......ewwww!
second-how do you put your heart into a relationship when youve done it many other times with other people.
third-why do you break up and then go onto another person. wouldnt being in a bad relationship deter you from going into another.
i dont know! i dont get it! its just confusing!
relationships-darn them
i mean seriously! the first two days it was GORGEOUS! and then it was complete down pour. and now suddenly its niceish. the old saying is "april showers bring may flowers". but what is this? may showers bring june flowers? thats not right!
come on! i want to break out the sundresses and its making me wear jeans that i'm so tired of! blarg!
any way so this week was decent
my boyfriend and i of just over a month broke up, wait let me check the calendar on my phone...... ok 37 days. which is pretty good i guess. well not really since people i know have been going out for years. wow that takes commitment! like my brother (DARN HIM) and his girlfriend (who i adore) will have been dating for THREE yes THREE years in october! isnt that crazy! they survived their first year of college and they are STILL a couple.
i on the other hand am not as lucky.
i try and fail alot.
i learn things the hard way. unfortunantly.
anyway it was weird for the first few days with out him since we usually spend lunch together but now were talking again and its just like old times when we were just friends :) but what was nice since he is kind of a big guy, all of those annoying guys that try to flirt with me left me alone because they were scared of him. it was great! i half wanted to show i mean have him meet that one annoying kid that i mentioned about in my first blog, so the annoying kid would know not to annoy me any more because there would be *bleep* to pay! ha ha!
we just found out we didnt have any chemistry which is an odd thing to tell a person, let me just tell you that!
anyway i have determined this week as "break up week" because alot of people i know are breaking up. ive only seen one couple get together. one of my best friends and her boyfriend. me and alex. maria schriver and arnold schwarzenegger. i mean what they heck!
apparently this happens all the time. two weeks after prom and people realize that the person they took to prom wasnt exactly who they thought they were and just sort of wanted them for a date and not anything more.so they break up. sad really. but many of those people are going off to college and who wants to be held down by a relationship that just sort of started because you didnt want to be the only person with out a date.part of the reason why we broke up.
relationships are hard.
let me just tell you that.
the longest legitimate relationship i've had was this just recent one and the one before that was exactly 28 days. woohoo i improved by 9 more days with this guy.
i guess i was going out with nick for three months in 7th grade. but we didnt do anything. we just sat on the bus together. i think he might have bought me my ticket to my first middle school dance. i still havent paid him back.... maybe i should do that some day....
i dont understand people who have had like 15 different girlfriends/boyfrineds. that just doesnt make sense! first off- how they heck do you get all those people to like you! oh wait i just thought of it ......ewwww!
second-how do you put your heart into a relationship when youve done it many other times with other people.
third-why do you break up and then go onto another person. wouldnt being in a bad relationship deter you from going into another.
i dont know! i dont get it! its just confusing!
relationships-darn them
Friday, May 6, 2011
some random stuff
so as you may or may not have noticed from this blog this is about random stuff
so lets start
1- i enjoy the smell of rain. its life in a drop of water
2- i despise yes despise the "it kids". even though sometimes i wish i was them. and i wish i had their hair. i still despise them.
3- i think that sex is way overated. i am a virgin so i wouldnt know and i plan to be that way for a while(as in until i'm married). but people that revolve their lives around losing their virginity just to fit in... ARE PATHETIC. if you have nothing better to do in your life besides get it on with someone you obviously have a lame life. do something else. besides your girlfriend/boyfriend.lol
4-i WAS a hopeless romantic. now im not. long story...
5-i think first and second graders(specifically mine or well former mine(i just ended my field experience for teacher cadet today)) are some of the sweetest most genuine individuals.
6- green is my favorite color. its the color of life. its the most beautiful color in the entire world! dont argue :)
7- religious nuts kinda piss me off. keep your religion to your self. i will believe what i want to you and you do that same. i applaud those who have a strong belief but please PLEASE dont preach it to me.i mean i'm religious and everything but i keep it to myself. its one of the two things i dont like to talk about. religion and politics. just dont go shove your religion in my face. thank you
8- i only started this blog because bailey introduced me to it and i kinda wanted to do the same.
9- i've always had a facination with sunshine. when i was little my nick name was "little miss mary sunshine" because i was a morning person. sunlight travels millions of miles to reach our planet just for all of us life forms living on it. we should at least appreciate it :)
10- when i grow up i want to get a chameleon and name it zephyr which means either a type of airy fabric or the god of the west wind or an array of things. i just think its a cool name. and yes the partial reson why i want to acquire a chameleon is because i love the movie tangled. and yes pascal is a cute name but i dont want to copy.
so lets start
1- i enjoy the smell of rain. its life in a drop of water
2- i despise yes despise the "it kids". even though sometimes i wish i was them. and i wish i had their hair. i still despise them.
3- i think that sex is way overated. i am a virgin so i wouldnt know and i plan to be that way for a while(as in until i'm married). but people that revolve their lives around losing their virginity just to fit in... ARE PATHETIC. if you have nothing better to do in your life besides get it on with someone you obviously have a lame life. do something else. besides your girlfriend/boyfriend.lol
4-i WAS a hopeless romantic. now im not. long story...
5-i think first and second graders(specifically mine or well former mine(i just ended my field experience for teacher cadet today)) are some of the sweetest most genuine individuals.
6- green is my favorite color. its the color of life. its the most beautiful color in the entire world! dont argue :)
7- religious nuts kinda piss me off. keep your religion to your self. i will believe what i want to you and you do that same. i applaud those who have a strong belief but please PLEASE dont preach it to me.i mean i'm religious and everything but i keep it to myself. its one of the two things i dont like to talk about. religion and politics. just dont go shove your religion in my face. thank you
8- i only started this blog because bailey introduced me to it and i kinda wanted to do the same.
9- i've always had a facination with sunshine. when i was little my nick name was "little miss mary sunshine" because i was a morning person. sunlight travels millions of miles to reach our planet just for all of us life forms living on it. we should at least appreciate it :)
10- when i grow up i want to get a chameleon and name it zephyr which means either a type of airy fabric or the god of the west wind or an array of things. i just think its a cool name. and yes the partial reson why i want to acquire a chameleon is because i love the movie tangled. and yes pascal is a cute name but i dont want to copy.
Friday, April 29, 2011
The Day Before Prom :D/ the "Day Without Hate" that had some hate
so here's the gist.
the good part
i actually have a date for prom. and hes a great guy :)
I'm really really excited for prom since its my first one and its my dates last since hes a senior
i think its cool that the royal wedding is the day before our prom. its sort of like a fairytale. Kate turns into a princess, i get to feel like a princess. my date was one of my best friends and we just recently got together over spring break. it just sort of happened. like one minute i was cold and the next we were "hand warmers"(its a technical term). people have been pressuring us to move further in our relationship and here are some reactions to them
1- i really don't care. i honestly don't. you can think what you want about my new relationship and i will not care
2- please don't pressure us to do stuff. we will take it at our own pase
3-please don't meddle in my social life. that would be wonderful. its not that interesting so why are you in it!
that is all. and i cant wait for my fairytale tomorrow night :) i feel sort of like Cinderella in a way. the perfect shoes, dress, makeup,hair, dinner and night. *sigh* i cant wait!
and here's the bad part.
unfortunately i am stuck in three classes with a guy, that lets just say i wouldn't mind if he fell in a hole....this kid i despise!i have never ever despised a kid so much in my life. its weird i know. so our feud has been going on for a few weeks. i think it all started the one day in AP American when he leaned from his desk, looked AT MY TEST, that i had just gotten back, and lets just say it wasn't pretty. so I'm trying to hide it and he of course leans from his desk and looks at mine and he says "hey i did better than you!" very very loudly!
OK so it wouldn't be so bad if this kid was sort of on good terms with me. but hes not! and hes that kid that just pisses off all the teachers ALL THE TIME and NEVER SHUTS UP! EVER! and i despise those types of kids. so i sort of go off on him. over the past few weeks he's tried to pick fights with me, me of all people! he tries to pretend hes smarter then me and even though i know i am (I'm not trying to sound big headed but if you knew this kid you would totally agree).
so this past week was prom spirit week and i loooooove and i mean LOOOOVE spirit week. and of course the kid is being really annoying as usual in my last class with him which is AP English. were doing a Socratic seminar, which i did most of the work for the group we were in . so he tries to first copy me, (heck no!) then gets mad at me for not helping him out (which i think is hilarious because the class period prior when we were preparing for this, i really tried to move our group along and get the answers to the questions. i got fed up after a while). so our turn rolls around of course i'm leading the discussion because the rest of the people in my group were screwing around when we were supposed to be working. so I'm answering questions and this kid is over snickering! yes snickering about some stupid thing. i get so fed up with it that when i am answering a question i say "do you mind?" in a very mean tone. and of course being the fantastic person he is (sarcasm) does not get that through his head and keeps snickering! soooo mad! so eventually he tries to answer a question, grabs MYsheet, and tries to use MY answer because he lost his sheet somewhere, and fumbled. i am of course fed up with his snickering so i jump on this and say "maybe you shouldn't do something that you don't know ANYTHING about!" one of my class mates says "you tell him Julia". and my English teacher just sits by and apparently people in my class found it entertaining to look at my expressions, that kids, and my English teachers because they were priceless. my teacher is also not on good terms with this kid so he just let me be mean.
and of course the spirit day for that day was "a day with out hate"
tons of irony, juxtaposition, satire, sarcasm, mockery, and biting wit going around that class period (i just looked up all the synonyms for irony :) )
and there was some hate :)
i mean i didn't really mean to be mean or well plan it. i just got fed up with him. and i called him out. i will do that if need be :)
apparently i made some guys day by calling that kid out :)
and it made it even better because my English teacher was calling him out on being so stupid at the end of class
karma does exist :)
YES!
the good part
i actually have a date for prom. and hes a great guy :)
I'm really really excited for prom since its my first one and its my dates last since hes a senior
i think its cool that the royal wedding is the day before our prom. its sort of like a fairytale. Kate turns into a princess, i get to feel like a princess. my date was one of my best friends and we just recently got together over spring break. it just sort of happened. like one minute i was cold and the next we were "hand warmers"(its a technical term). people have been pressuring us to move further in our relationship and here are some reactions to them
1- i really don't care. i honestly don't. you can think what you want about my new relationship and i will not care
2- please don't pressure us to do stuff. we will take it at our own pase
3-please don't meddle in my social life. that would be wonderful. its not that interesting so why are you in it!
that is all. and i cant wait for my fairytale tomorrow night :) i feel sort of like Cinderella in a way. the perfect shoes, dress, makeup,hair, dinner and night. *sigh* i cant wait!
and here's the bad part.
unfortunately i am stuck in three classes with a guy, that lets just say i wouldn't mind if he fell in a hole....this kid i despise!i have never ever despised a kid so much in my life. its weird i know. so our feud has been going on for a few weeks. i think it all started the one day in AP American when he leaned from his desk, looked AT MY TEST, that i had just gotten back, and lets just say it wasn't pretty. so I'm trying to hide it and he of course leans from his desk and looks at mine and he says "hey i did better than you!" very very loudly!
OK so it wouldn't be so bad if this kid was sort of on good terms with me. but hes not! and hes that kid that just pisses off all the teachers ALL THE TIME and NEVER SHUTS UP! EVER! and i despise those types of kids. so i sort of go off on him. over the past few weeks he's tried to pick fights with me, me of all people! he tries to pretend hes smarter then me and even though i know i am (I'm not trying to sound big headed but if you knew this kid you would totally agree).
so this past week was prom spirit week and i loooooove and i mean LOOOOVE spirit week. and of course the kid is being really annoying as usual in my last class with him which is AP English. were doing a Socratic seminar, which i did most of the work for the group we were in . so he tries to first copy me, (heck no!) then gets mad at me for not helping him out (which i think is hilarious because the class period prior when we were preparing for this, i really tried to move our group along and get the answers to the questions. i got fed up after a while). so our turn rolls around of course i'm leading the discussion because the rest of the people in my group were screwing around when we were supposed to be working. so I'm answering questions and this kid is over snickering! yes snickering about some stupid thing. i get so fed up with it that when i am answering a question i say "do you mind?" in a very mean tone. and of course being the fantastic person he is (sarcasm) does not get that through his head and keeps snickering! soooo mad! so eventually he tries to answer a question, grabs MYsheet, and tries to use MY answer because he lost his sheet somewhere, and fumbled. i am of course fed up with his snickering so i jump on this and say "maybe you shouldn't do something that you don't know ANYTHING about!" one of my class mates says "you tell him Julia". and my English teacher just sits by and apparently people in my class found it entertaining to look at my expressions, that kids, and my English teachers because they were priceless. my teacher is also not on good terms with this kid so he just let me be mean.
and of course the spirit day for that day was "a day with out hate"
tons of irony, juxtaposition, satire, sarcasm, mockery, and biting wit going around that class period (i just looked up all the synonyms for irony :) )
and there was some hate :)
i mean i didn't really mean to be mean or well plan it. i just got fed up with him. and i called him out. i will do that if need be :)
apparently i made some guys day by calling that kid out :)
and it made it even better because my English teacher was calling him out on being so stupid at the end of class
karma does exist :)
YES!
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