ok let me just start off by saying
this is not about the superwoman in the comic books with the itty bitty waist, vivacious curves and long brown hair
plus the tiny tighter than skin suit she loves to wear
and guys favorite part
the gargantuan boobs
but this is NOT and let me repeat NOT about super woman - had to repeat not or else the guys would only be thinking about her boobs for the entire part of this blog
no this is about the everyday girl
the one across the street or next door that you love and adore
is about their inner strenght
the real people that they are
have you ever really seriously thought about what really separates women and men
one chromosome
we have two X's instead of an X and a Y
technically we are just like men except for that one chromosome
so what really irks me is that so many social boundaries have been made because of this one freaking chromosome (sorry mom i said freaking)
women and men are night and day
we both have strengths and weaknesses
what society doesnt realize is that we cant just focus on a mans strengths for us to proceed
we need women
just like we need the sun to shine
we are esential
theres a reason why god made women bear children
we can handle it
- except for that one guy- but were excluding him
have you noticed that because of women our society has moved forward faster
it all started with the suffragist movements in the early 20th century
thanks to alice paul and many other women the world saw women not as their wives and bearers of their children but as members, people that had a voice and were willing to do anything to have it be heard.
women have broken down social boundaries left and right
rosa parks- she was one of the people to start the ball rolling for equal rights for african americans
marian anderson- in 1939 the DAR refused to let her sing in DC's constitution hall because she was black. first lady eleanor roosevelt resigned from the DAR and her husbands administration arranged an outdoor concert at the lincoln memorial for a crowd of 75,000 and millions of radio listeners. she was the first african american to sing with the metropolitan opera and in 1958 became a delegate to the UN
mother teresa- do you think any of what she accomplished could hav been as sucessful, if she hadnt done it.
amelia earhart- she showed up all those pilots- need i say more
marie curie- she won two yes two nobel peace prizes- she discovered two elements! holy cow!
margaret thatcher- first female prime minister for britain
annie oakley- shes one tough chick
eleanor roosevelt- do you think any other first ladies ever were more involved until she came along?
nope
JK Rowling- come on who hasnt read her books? shes inspirational!
Barbara streisand- she refused to get a nose job when someone told her she had to to be a star. shes famous! ha ha
Helen Keller- she had everything against her and yet she still conquered and inspired the world
all of these women were strong smart and used their brains not their looks to get where they wanted to go
they aspired to be something more and they were
they acheived their dreams and persevered
<3
none of them were sex symbols
did you notice that?
they used their brain not their body to change the world
ok so marilyn monroe was famous but really did she change the world like these women?
no
ok so maybe she influence some kennedy's but not really
see heres the problem with our society
were all really superficial
we focus too much on fitting in and to fit in we have to be sexually active
isnt that crazy?
having sex just to fit in
i think its just wrong
because if a person only loves you for the sex then they are wayy below what your standards are
you deserve so much better
girls dress in over revealing clothing to show off their curves
have you seen how freakishly tiny prom dresses are
its like "i'm going to have just enough fabric to cover all the necessary areas and thats all i need"
girls all think that they have to wear all the designer clothing and show everything to get noticed
when really its totally opposite
if you really want a relationship then you need to be with some one whos not as shallow as what your bra size is
ok i'll admit it i do have a victoria secret bra and it looks great but i dont show off everything
its just not necessary
i mean if a guy only likes you for your rack- hes not worth your time
sure looks are part of a relationship- who does love going out with a dreamy guy?- but to make it last you have to look beyond it
and if your stressing about being a size zero because you think thats the only way guys will like you then you are seriously mistaken
believe it or not i'm actually a size 7 or 8
plenty of people are larger or smaller then me
and if you look healthy and glowing you'll attract guys better that way
you are so much prettier then what you wear
if he doesnt like you for who you are throught thick and thin
no matter what happens
he still isnt worth your time
women are usually the "smarter" gender of our society
we have the capacity to love unconditionally
we have minds
we have hearts
we think in color
not black, white and gray
my mom says "if women ruled the world we wouldnt have wars"
which i think is totally true
women wouldnt intentionally send their babies off to war
<3
love yourself for who you are and the world will change for you, if you are so sure about who you are then the world cant do anything to change that. then it will give and change
the greatest love stories were not about how the other person looked like- that would get really old quickly. if all it was about was that the other person was hot.
it was about who the other person was
and how beautiful they were on the inside
we all have insecurities
we all have parts of us we'd rather not have
we all wish we were the "it girl"
we have wacko families
we all have happily ever afters
we all want prince charming
we all want to be accepted
we all want to be able to dance in the light
god made you how he wanted you to be
dont be fake
be yourself
thats the best advice i can give
and the world
WILL CHANGE FOR YOU
your gorgeous
you are unique
you are original
you are dazzling
you are lovely
you are classic
you are genuine
you are real
you are true
you are glittery
you are you
you have flaws
so what!
we all do
but your going to love yourself anyway
your perfect in my eyes
and if people can accept that then you are way better then them
and they dont belong in your life
you are one of a kind
dont copy
make your own path
i have a bumper sticker that says "women who did what they were told never made history"
<3
so prove them all wrong
love who you want to love
show up the world
you are you and there is nothing they can do about it
"you are you, which is truer than true, and there is no one truer then you"
remeber that!
be your own super woman
and some day you WILL change the world
you are perfect to me
so show me what you got!
and i will cheer you on the entire way if your doing what you love
love yourself and the world will too
love- its how the world changes- one woman at a time
<3 always
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my opinions on life, things that are happening, and whatever else i think about.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
tough issues- what i would do- if i had one week to live
so heres another suggestion from another one of my good friends on facebook
"What would you do if you only had 1 week to live?"
well me being the person i am i wouldnt just sit around and mope
heres a list of what i would do
1- skydiving- i hear its amazing and quite frankly i want to finally be able to say i have for the last few days
2- kiss alex pettyfer- hes the star of i am number 4- hes TO. DIE . FOR
3-eat the hottest chile pepper which is the infinit pepper. which is exactly 1,382,118 Scoville Heat Units (SHU) - i have no idea what those are
4- go to carnegie hall and just play and soak it all in. nobody has to be there.i just want to sit and enjoy
5- i want to break a guiness world record
6- get back at all the boys who have ever broken my heart
7- got to verona italy- its where romeo and juliet first met :)
8- then fall in love with my romeo
9- buy a duck and name it puddles
10- climb a volcano
11- marvel at something
12- go to india and have legitimate indian food
13- eat a crossaint on top of the eiffel tower
14- then pee on the eiffel tower- they have a restroom up there!
15- take a long walk on a beach
16- go cliff diving
17- tell everybody who pisses me off how i actually feel about them
18- be in a music video
19- go bungee jumping
20- go to new york
21- see then northern lights
22- hike everest
23- be in a nudist colony- i dont really want to be a nudist- i just want to see how it is to talk to someone totally naked :)
24- go skinny dipping
25- then get caught
26- go to rio de janero for carnival
27- learn belly dancing
28- eat until i about explode
29- go to the olympics
30- go to africa
31- go through the drive thru on a scooter or something other then a car
32- kiss in the rain- i have no idea why i'm intersted - maybe theres something magical about the rain
33- i want to scare someone so much they pee their pants :)
34- i want to egg/ fork/toilet paper a house
35- legitimately slap someone for being a jerk
36- be in a flash mob
37- go to stone henge for the summer solstice
38- get lost in a field of sun flowers
39- have 500$ and a few good friends and see how far it takes us
40- then go road tripping where ever we think sounds cool
41- study abrod
42- design an entire room/house just the way i want it to be, nobody is going to tell me i'm wrong
43- go to a club
44- photo copy my butt :)
45- pull an all nighter
46- cuss out my first kiss
47-then kick him where it hurts
48- then laugh as he crumples to the ground
49- swim in a public fountain
50-live
51- carve my initials into a tree
52- go on the vomitron
53- watch all of the lord of the rings movies
54- recreated the kiss- you know the victory in japan day one- ok the one with the sailor and the nurse- i have a t- shirt
55-have a street named after me
56- solve a rubiks cube
57- paint my nails each a different color
58- prank call someone
59- gorilla glue quarters to a side walk
60- say "i love you" and actually mean it
61- have a legitimate pillow fight
62-see the galapagos archapelago
63-visit the fjords of norway
64- visit the sagrada familia in bilbao spain
65-go to the day of the dead in mexico
66-go all the way on route 66
67-read every book that has won a pulitzer prize
68-cut the ribbon at a major opening event
69-swim in the amazon river, and see the pink dolphins
70-do the running of the bulls
71-shop at harrods
72-learn to pogo stick well
73-sleep in a castle
74- volunteer to be a disney princess at disney world or land. that would be soo cool
75-become a vlogger
76- shop until i drop
77-shake hands with the pope
78-go kite surfing
79-learn latin
80- have a date to my senior prom
81- purchase a coach bag
82- adopt a pet from an animal shelter
83-appologize to everyone i have ever lied
84-eat fugu- japanese pufferfish
85-get married
86-travel all over europe for my honey moon
87-have kids
88- get grandkids
89-become a god parent
90-learn to salsa dance
91-go to a costume party, in a legitimate costumr
92-visit the pyramids
93-explore new york all by myself
94-preform at a poetry slam
95-live
96-laugh
97-love
98-fly
99-do what i love
100-live for today
ok jon so heres what i want to do
who knows if it will all happen but thats what i want to do
i'll live up my last week and make it EPIC!
enjoy
<3
- be proud mom theres nothing about sex
"What would you do if you only had 1 week to live?"
well me being the person i am i wouldnt just sit around and mope
heres a list of what i would do
1- skydiving- i hear its amazing and quite frankly i want to finally be able to say i have for the last few days
2- kiss alex pettyfer- hes the star of i am number 4- hes TO. DIE . FOR
3-eat the hottest chile pepper which is the infinit pepper. which is exactly 1,382,118 Scoville Heat Units (SHU) - i have no idea what those are
4- go to carnegie hall and just play and soak it all in. nobody has to be there.i just want to sit and enjoy
5- i want to break a guiness world record
6- get back at all the boys who have ever broken my heart
7- got to verona italy- its where romeo and juliet first met :)
8- then fall in love with my romeo
9- buy a duck and name it puddles
10- climb a volcano
11- marvel at something
12- go to india and have legitimate indian food
13- eat a crossaint on top of the eiffel tower
14- then pee on the eiffel tower- they have a restroom up there!
15- take a long walk on a beach
16- go cliff diving
17- tell everybody who pisses me off how i actually feel about them
18- be in a music video
19- go bungee jumping
20- go to new york
21- see then northern lights
22- hike everest
23- be in a nudist colony- i dont really want to be a nudist- i just want to see how it is to talk to someone totally naked :)
24- go skinny dipping
25- then get caught
26- go to rio de janero for carnival
27- learn belly dancing
28- eat until i about explode
29- go to the olympics
30- go to africa
31- go through the drive thru on a scooter or something other then a car
32- kiss in the rain- i have no idea why i'm intersted - maybe theres something magical about the rain
33- i want to scare someone so much they pee their pants :)
34- i want to egg/ fork/toilet paper a house
35- legitimately slap someone for being a jerk
36- be in a flash mob
37- go to stone henge for the summer solstice
38- get lost in a field of sun flowers
39- have 500$ and a few good friends and see how far it takes us
40- then go road tripping where ever we think sounds cool
41- study abrod
42- design an entire room/house just the way i want it to be, nobody is going to tell me i'm wrong
43- go to a club
44- photo copy my butt :)
45- pull an all nighter
46- cuss out my first kiss
47-then kick him where it hurts
48- then laugh as he crumples to the ground
49- swim in a public fountain
50-live
51- carve my initials into a tree
52- go on the vomitron
53- watch all of the lord of the rings movies
54- recreated the kiss- you know the victory in japan day one- ok the one with the sailor and the nurse- i have a t- shirt
55-have a street named after me
56- solve a rubiks cube
57- paint my nails each a different color
58- prank call someone
59- gorilla glue quarters to a side walk
60- say "i love you" and actually mean it
61- have a legitimate pillow fight
62-see the galapagos archapelago
63-visit the fjords of norway
64- visit the sagrada familia in bilbao spain
65-go to the day of the dead in mexico
66-go all the way on route 66
67-read every book that has won a pulitzer prize
68-cut the ribbon at a major opening event
69-swim in the amazon river, and see the pink dolphins
70-do the running of the bulls
71-shop at harrods
72-learn to pogo stick well
73-sleep in a castle
74- volunteer to be a disney princess at disney world or land. that would be soo cool
75-become a vlogger
76- shop until i drop
77-shake hands with the pope
78-go kite surfing
79-learn latin
80- have a date to my senior prom
81- purchase a coach bag
82- adopt a pet from an animal shelter
83-appologize to everyone i have ever lied
84-eat fugu- japanese pufferfish
85-get married
86-travel all over europe for my honey moon
87-have kids
88- get grandkids
89-become a god parent
90-learn to salsa dance
91-go to a costume party, in a legitimate costumr
92-visit the pyramids
93-explore new york all by myself
94-preform at a poetry slam
95-live
96-laugh
97-love
98-fly
99-do what i love
100-live for today
ok jon so heres what i want to do
who knows if it will all happen but thats what i want to do
i'll live up my last week and make it EPIC!
enjoy
<3
- be proud mom theres nothing about sex
tough issues- what i would do- coma 50% chance to live... or die
so i'm starting a new sort of segment
you give me a topic/ scenerio/ what have you
and i'll give you my point of view
so give me it your best shot!
so i asked friends on facebook to shoot me ideas
and heres one i got from one of my good friends
"If you were in a coma with a 50% chance of waking up, would you want someone to pull the plug or see if you will come through?"
my honest thoughts here
ok so if the situation was that i had just gone into a coma i'd say if i could
"hold on! i'm a fighter, i'll get out of this"
i'm the type of person who fights
i try and fail and fight for everything
but after a few months and there was grim hope i'd say
"let me go. i'm not living a life on a bed . let me go live another life in another world"
from my info off of wikipedia after 4 months in a coma theres a 15% chance you'll pull out of it
and an even lower chance you'll fully recover
if it was looking really grim i would have my family pull the plug
like if it was affecting their lives. if it was becoming a burden on my family i would say do it
so theres my opinion on what i would do
enjoy paige :)
you give me a topic/ scenerio/ what have you
and i'll give you my point of view
so give me it your best shot!
so i asked friends on facebook to shoot me ideas
and heres one i got from one of my good friends
"If you were in a coma with a 50% chance of waking up, would you want someone to pull the plug or see if you will come through?"
my honest thoughts here
ok so if the situation was that i had just gone into a coma i'd say if i could
"hold on! i'm a fighter, i'll get out of this"
i'm the type of person who fights
i try and fail and fight for everything
but after a few months and there was grim hope i'd say
"let me go. i'm not living a life on a bed . let me go live another life in another world"
from my info off of wikipedia after 4 months in a coma theres a 15% chance you'll pull out of it
and an even lower chance you'll fully recover
if it was looking really grim i would have my family pull the plug
like if it was affecting their lives. if it was becoming a burden on my family i would say do it
so theres my opinion on what i would do
enjoy paige :)
Friday, June 24, 2011
feet and turtles
so as brought you by popular demand
i am writing a blog about feet...... and turtles
you had better read it rylee and connor!
so to start off
FEET
the one thing my sister hates more then anything! she hates my feet for some odd reason, like she says my toes look weird or something. i think i have pretty normal feet.
sure my second toe is a teeny tiny eeny weeny bit taller then my big toe but thats nothing to freak about.
she really really hates when i stick my feet in her face :) ha ha
but alot can go wrong with feet
such as bunions, athletes foot, ingrown toenails, mortons neuroma, plantar fasciitis, plantar warts,webbed feet,-wouldnt that be really cool to have webbed feet? you would have flippers and could swim really fast, but flip flops might be interesting- and stress fractures.
AND
there are genetic disorders as well- fantastic
so there are flat feet or club feet
and then there are animal feet
soft feet which mammals have
and hard feet which are hooves
- i found all of this all on wikipedia :)
little family secret
my mom says that if owen- my older brother who has the opinion about me and boys- so if he ever tries to enter the military my mom will and i quote say
"he has flat feet, wets the bed :) and is gay"
he is none of those of course
he doest not have flat feeet
does not wet the bed- that i'm aware of
and is not gay- i love his girlfriend
and apparently feet can be attractive
like this one guy on the bachelorette was in love with the girls feet- he was just inlove with them- it was weird!
normal people find other peoples eyes, body or sometimes even lips which i dont understand attractive
i find the eyes are the best- pretty eyes make the world better
oh and there is the foot which is a unit of measure
12 inches people
ok and the counter part of this blog
TURTLES
you know those creatures that sometimes look like slow moving rocks
my family actually owns two yes two box turtles
ones name is shelly- i know so original
and ones name is angus- dont ask
they just kind of sit there
eat their food
and swim in their thing- i dont know what to call their water bowl- i guess a pool
so this is how wikipedia sums them up
turtles - are reptiles of the order Testudines (the crown group of the superorder Chelonia), characterised by a special bony or cartilaginous shell developed from their ribs that acts as a shield. "Turtle" may either refer to the Testudines as a whole, or to particular Testudines which make up a form taxon that is not monophyletic—see also sea turtle, terrapin, tortoise, and the discussion below.
isnt that a lot of words you dont know anything or care about?!?
so pretty much you know everything you need to know about a turtle
the earliest relatives of turtles were 215 MILLION yes MILLION years ago
thats a long time ago
they must be doing something right
there are big turtles that are well GIGANTIC
and tiny turtles that you can fit in your hand
but whats common is that they are all slow
you'd be slow too if you had to carry your house on your back
i dont get people who name their turtle flash or zippy or some other word to mean fast
because its ironic
and kind of mean
because they will never live up to their name of being flash or zippy
and who would want to be named something like that, just an adjective, not a real name
well i have no room to talk with my turtles named shelly and angus
apparently they enjoy doing races against pompist hares
actually its a tortoise but they come from the same family
maybe turtles have something right about how to live life
take it slow
check out the view
show up hares that think they are all that
have your house on your back- i guess that kind of makes them like refugees or something -because they move all the time with their houses
eat bugs, grasses or what ever comes along your path
and hide when someone dangerous comes by
but as soon as you find out they are not scary, scare them half to death by turning from a rock to a turtle
wouldnt that scare you too?
ok i proved that i can write about feet and turtles
be happy with it
oh and slow and steady always wins the race
words to live by
<3
i am writing a blog about feet...... and turtles
you had better read it rylee and connor!
so to start off
FEET
the one thing my sister hates more then anything! she hates my feet for some odd reason, like she says my toes look weird or something. i think i have pretty normal feet.
sure my second toe is a teeny tiny eeny weeny bit taller then my big toe but thats nothing to freak about.
she really really hates when i stick my feet in her face :) ha ha
but alot can go wrong with feet
such as bunions, athletes foot, ingrown toenails, mortons neuroma, plantar fasciitis, plantar warts,webbed feet,-wouldnt that be really cool to have webbed feet? you would have flippers and could swim really fast, but flip flops might be interesting- and stress fractures.
AND
there are genetic disorders as well- fantastic
so there are flat feet or club feet
and then there are animal feet
soft feet which mammals have
and hard feet which are hooves
- i found all of this all on wikipedia :)
little family secret
my mom says that if owen- my older brother who has the opinion about me and boys- so if he ever tries to enter the military my mom will and i quote say
"he has flat feet, wets the bed :) and is gay"
he is none of those of course
he doest not have flat feeet
does not wet the bed- that i'm aware of
and is not gay- i love his girlfriend
and apparently feet can be attractive
like this one guy on the bachelorette was in love with the girls feet- he was just inlove with them- it was weird!
normal people find other peoples eyes, body or sometimes even lips which i dont understand attractive
i find the eyes are the best- pretty eyes make the world better
oh and there is the foot which is a unit of measure
12 inches people
ok and the counter part of this blog
TURTLES
you know those creatures that sometimes look like slow moving rocks
my family actually owns two yes two box turtles
ones name is shelly- i know so original
and ones name is angus- dont ask
they just kind of sit there
eat their food
and swim in their thing- i dont know what to call their water bowl- i guess a pool
so this is how wikipedia sums them up
turtles - are reptiles of the order Testudines (the crown group of the superorder Chelonia), characterised by a special bony or cartilaginous shell developed from their ribs that acts as a shield. "Turtle" may either refer to the Testudines as a whole, or to particular Testudines which make up a form taxon that is not monophyletic—see also sea turtle, terrapin, tortoise, and the discussion below.
isnt that a lot of words you dont know anything or care about?!?
so pretty much you know everything you need to know about a turtle
the earliest relatives of turtles were 215 MILLION yes MILLION years ago
thats a long time ago
they must be doing something right
there are big turtles that are well GIGANTIC
and tiny turtles that you can fit in your hand
but whats common is that they are all slow
you'd be slow too if you had to carry your house on your back
i dont get people who name their turtle flash or zippy or some other word to mean fast
because its ironic
and kind of mean
because they will never live up to their name of being flash or zippy
and who would want to be named something like that, just an adjective, not a real name
well i have no room to talk with my turtles named shelly and angus
apparently they enjoy doing races against pompist hares
actually its a tortoise but they come from the same family
maybe turtles have something right about how to live life
take it slow
check out the view
show up hares that think they are all that
have your house on your back- i guess that kind of makes them like refugees or something -because they move all the time with their houses
eat bugs, grasses or what ever comes along your path
and hide when someone dangerous comes by
but as soon as you find out they are not scary, scare them half to death by turning from a rock to a turtle
wouldnt that scare you too?
ok i proved that i can write about feet and turtles
be happy with it
oh and slow and steady always wins the race
words to live by
<3
Thursday, June 16, 2011
born this way
believe it or not this blog post is named after the lady gaga song.
hey its a great song with a great message so dont even think about judging.
ok so heres the gist
wow i just realized i begin alot of these that way
so over these past few weeks i've really tried to see who i was.
i've always been compared to other people.
one of the volzke children
owens sister
claires hot big sister- no i didnt pay them to say that
that middle child
ive realized from being the middle child its really difficult
being the first has its advantages. your the learning child so you can really do anything. ex- stand on your baby sisters chest when shes 2 months old and has had heart surgery- yep he did that- mom doesnt think i could breathe- i think he was trying to kill me- ha! i'm still here : )
being the middle, your parents have learned from their "mistakes" (i'd call it fun) and now are implenting the actions on you. so you cant get away with anything
being the third, they've already dealt with two so they let you slide since they have bigger fish to fry. ex- owens asthma, julias heart condition, school. the only disadvantage is that you get drug around everywhere
so i'm stuck forever in the middle of this wacko trio of siblings.-fantastic
if it were up to me i'd totally be the oldest. your the learning child. and also the star of the family. so i have to live up to a star. which i'm not going to lie kinda sucks.
unfortunantly after all these years i'm still compared to owen AND I'M 17
will people finally realize that i AM NOT OWEN!! we look nothing alike. hes blonde, i'm brunette(ish). hes blue eyed , i'm brown. hes nerdy, i'm not. hes kinda mean, i'm a social butterfly. hes lucky, i try to be. thank goodness i'm not compared to my little sister or else i'd really be screwed.
people have told me over the years "you dont need to be him, be yourself". i didnt realize that i could finally step out and be myself until today.
i found out my friends are having a party and i was not invited (yep i found out). and my mom wouldnt let me go sit with a friend during his chemo because "i'm afraid you'll get lost" - i had turn by turn directions from my house to the hospital with a map.
so today i was fed up with pleasing people
i was fed up with people thinking i couldnt do something and lying to my face
i was tired of people doubting me
so i did something scandalous
ok it wasnt scandalous but it was different then my usual personality
i dolled myself up (wow! i know i can do that), told my sister i was going to the mall and i did
i went to the mall all by myself all because i wanted to.
no reason but that i felt like it
its my life so why not live it
also we are redoing my room so we've been looking at stuff and i have ideas. and my mom being the person she is, is putting her 2 cents in. actually its more like 30
but i've decided today that its my room and i have to live with it until i'm tired of it.
i have a theme in mind and i'll make my room all my own
i am original
i am unique
i am different
i am unusual
i am special
i am singular
this is who i am
i am quirky, i make mistakes, i cant keep a boyfriend for very long, i write blogs about my life, i love peppermint, i play the bassoon and am part of the marchingband at my highschool which i adore, i love words- ones with odd meanings make my day, i am a daddys girl, i am not completely sure if i believe in a god that lives in heaven, but i do go to church as a guidline for life,how to live my life -oh wow thats the first time i've ever admited that outside of my head- , i think of grand come backs in my head and they never seem to come out how i planned. i cant argue, i am not perfect
this is who i am
and if you cant accept that
that i was born this way
then your not worth my time
so deal with it
oh and dont forget- i'm on the right track, baby i was born this way hey!
<3
hey its a great song with a great message so dont even think about judging.
ok so heres the gist
wow i just realized i begin alot of these that way
so over these past few weeks i've really tried to see who i was.
i've always been compared to other people.
one of the volzke children
owens sister
claires hot big sister- no i didnt pay them to say that
that middle child
ive realized from being the middle child its really difficult
being the first has its advantages. your the learning child so you can really do anything. ex- stand on your baby sisters chest when shes 2 months old and has had heart surgery- yep he did that- mom doesnt think i could breathe- i think he was trying to kill me- ha! i'm still here : )
being the middle, your parents have learned from their "mistakes" (i'd call it fun) and now are implenting the actions on you. so you cant get away with anything
being the third, they've already dealt with two so they let you slide since they have bigger fish to fry. ex- owens asthma, julias heart condition, school. the only disadvantage is that you get drug around everywhere
so i'm stuck forever in the middle of this wacko trio of siblings.-fantastic
if it were up to me i'd totally be the oldest. your the learning child. and also the star of the family. so i have to live up to a star. which i'm not going to lie kinda sucks.
unfortunantly after all these years i'm still compared to owen AND I'M 17
will people finally realize that i AM NOT OWEN!! we look nothing alike. hes blonde, i'm brunette(ish). hes blue eyed , i'm brown. hes nerdy, i'm not. hes kinda mean, i'm a social butterfly. hes lucky, i try to be. thank goodness i'm not compared to my little sister or else i'd really be screwed.
people have told me over the years "you dont need to be him, be yourself". i didnt realize that i could finally step out and be myself until today.
i found out my friends are having a party and i was not invited (yep i found out). and my mom wouldnt let me go sit with a friend during his chemo because "i'm afraid you'll get lost" - i had turn by turn directions from my house to the hospital with a map.
so today i was fed up with pleasing people
i was fed up with people thinking i couldnt do something and lying to my face
i was tired of people doubting me
so i did something scandalous
ok it wasnt scandalous but it was different then my usual personality
i dolled myself up (wow! i know i can do that), told my sister i was going to the mall and i did
i went to the mall all by myself all because i wanted to.
no reason but that i felt like it
its my life so why not live it
also we are redoing my room so we've been looking at stuff and i have ideas. and my mom being the person she is, is putting her 2 cents in. actually its more like 30
but i've decided today that its my room and i have to live with it until i'm tired of it.
i have a theme in mind and i'll make my room all my own
i am original
i am unique
i am different
i am unusual
i am special
i am singular
this is who i am
i am quirky, i make mistakes, i cant keep a boyfriend for very long, i write blogs about my life, i love peppermint, i play the bassoon and am part of the marchingband at my highschool which i adore, i love words- ones with odd meanings make my day, i am a daddys girl, i am not completely sure if i believe in a god that lives in heaven, but i do go to church as a guidline for life,how to live my life -oh wow thats the first time i've ever admited that outside of my head- , i think of grand come backs in my head and they never seem to come out how i planned. i cant argue, i am not perfect
this is who i am
and if you cant accept that
that i was born this way
then your not worth my time
so deal with it
oh and dont forget- i'm on the right track, baby i was born this way hey!
<3
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