songs that make me

i believe that music has an incredible force on our earth
we can hear it but it will mean different things to different people
and written music such as that you can play on an instrument is the universal language. how cool is that?
so here are some of the songs that mean something to me and make me who i am
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stronger- kelly clarkson- she hasnt had alot of luck with guys and shes alot like me in that way and because of that she can still function and doesnt let it get her down, very strong woman

closer i am to fine- indigo girls- this song makes me feel so good and very peaceful and reminds me of MADD camp and make me really look at myself and see if who i am is what i want to be

set fire to the rain- adele-such a strong and wonderful song, and i get this great image of like tear drops of fire on a totally dark sky

you make me feel like- cobra starship- i just dance alot to this

love story- taylor swift- will irrevocably will be the song that will remind of jon greisinger. first boy i ever fell for and that song just reminds me of my freshman homecoming and dancing the night away with him. i will always have a soft spot in my heart for him

jesse's girl- rick springfield-just love that song

some nights-fun.- such a strong song and makes me want to get up and make something happen

iris-goo goo dolls- gorgeous song and it reminds me not to cut myself off from the world and to go and experience something. to not be afraid of what people will think and to just love myself

heavy- florence and the machine- just love it.

rocky mountain high- john denver- first song i think i ever learned or remember hearing and it makes me appreciate colorado and brings me back to my roots and who i am

50 ways to say goodbye- train- hilarious song! i love it so much!!

the cave- mumford and sons- allegory of the cave :)

little talks- of monsters and men- just a great song to listen to- trippy music video

kiss you goodnight- gloriana- my heart aches to have this happen to me someday. so beautiful and so much great tension that you can just sense and that you want to explode into something beautiful :) its a trap for romantic saps like me.

landslide- fleetwood mac- just shows this great healing process and how this person finds who they are. i love it :) putting yourself back together

dog days- florence and the machine- just a great song and i cant get enough of it!

gonna get over you- sara bareilles- fun up beat song about getting over that person and just moving on. i just like to dance to it :)

i'll be-edwin mccain- i know it is played at every single dance ever as a slow dance but its so pretty and i just melt. plus if i dont have anyone to dance with i dance with the single ladies and we do interpretive dancing, and its fun :)

little lion man- mumford and sons- just love that song

somebody that i used to know- pentatonix- the original by goyte is way over played but the version that they do is AMAZING!

marry me- train- such a sweet and beautiful song :)

someone like you-adele- you can just feel the longing in her voice. and my heart just aches for her and its so soulful

honestly- hot chelle rae- fun song and by the end its the right way to break up with someone. help them get over you and then help them move on and hope that they are happy

a thousand years- christina perri- such a romantic and beautiful song

king of anything- sara bareilles- just makes a point to people that they are not that great and takes them down to a normal level. i love it!

lucky- jason mraz featuring colbie callait- about love and having a relationship long distance and still keeping that connection over the miles

easy- rascal flatts - such a beautiful song and really shows how much two people can still care for each other even though no longer together

glad you came- wanted- those guys are super attractive and this is such a fun and sexy song and i cant help dancing like a crazy person during it :)

you belong with me- taylor swift- i've had this happen so many times where the boy falls for the bad girl. just waiting for them all to wake up :)

starships- cover by pentatonix- they are just incredible and this is the most fun music video ever!

broken arrow- pixie lott- such a sad and beautiful song full of all this longing for this person

call me maybe- carly rae jepsen- i love all the parodies to this song and i hate the end of it where the boy turns out gay. nothing against gay people but i really wished he fell for the girl and not a member of the band

remind me- brad paisley featuring carrie underwood- gorgeous song and i love the chemistry that it portrays in the song. so beautiful

mr know it all- kelly clarkson- she wont let any of the media or anyone get inside her head and take her down, because shes fricken amazing!!

september- earth wind and fire- from my first marching band show freshman year it was the closer and its just a fun and up beat song and i cant help dancing to it :) all the time

springsteen- eric church- this song reminds me of mike and trenton and singing in trents truck :) i love it

i wont give up- jason mraz- such a wonderful song about commitment and loving that person for the rest of your life. this man seriously cares :)

shake it off- florence and the machine- that band in general is just amazing! it makes you feel better and its a very strong song

wanted- hunter hayes- i love every bit of this song. in my life i find meaning in things where i am needed or wanted the most. i like  to feel needed. and this song just tugs on every emotion i have and i just love it. if anyone were to understand me and want to know what i love. just listen to these lyrics and you will know the way to my heart.

enjoy
live
laugh
and love alot
 <3 <3 <3

Ferdinand

i have been on a bit of a writing block

i can not honestly think of anything to write about

so this is just a blog of random things about me

if you truly know me you'll know that Ferdinand the bull by Munro Leaf is my all time favorite childrens story

and i have no idea why

i guess when i was younger i never really thought of the message behind it and thought it was boring

but right now i feel like it has this wonderful meaning to me

how the bull is supposed to fight and his sole purpose in life is to fight and fight and fight

and yet hes perfectly content sitting under his favorite cork tree just smelling the flowers

it gives you a feel of to just enjoy the simple things in life 

like smelling the flowers and enjoying life

whenever i'm having a bad day and i just need to calm down i read that book and the world is at peace

hes just such a gentle soul

if you truly know me you'll know that i love yellow roses

i think that they are so classic and simple apposed to all those red and pink roses

red and pink are way overdone and imply romance

i like yellow because it still has that innocence and stand for friendship

and i think if you are ever going to love someone you have to be friends with the first

you cant just jump to soul mates

you have to care for them first

if you truly know me you'll know that i think the biggest compliment i will ever get is to be called witty

I've been called beautiful sexy and pretty way to many times

i need something different and those are all way over used

i need something new

i have so much more to me than my looks

i have been told that i should be a model

but i think i can make the world a way better place using my mind instead of my body

and sure some of those do imply an inner person

but not all the time 

i have a mind and i'd like to be know for that instead of my body

if you truly know me you'll know that i feel most comfortable in jeans

there is something so sexy and confident about jeans

i could honestly conquer the world if i was wearing a pair of skinny jeans

they cover everything and they pretty much go with anything

if you truly know me you'll know i love hats and boots

they add so much personality to things

and i think that they have the best styles and can be worn anywhere

i especially love fedoras and cloches and brown leather boots with heels and straps

just girly boots that are not in girly colors

i think brown can be sexy and strong at the very same time

i have a pair of boots that i call my "butt kicking boots"

i honestly feel like i could kick someones butt in these boots

if you truly know me you'll know i have a heart condition

when i was 15 hours old i had open heart surgery because there was a narrowing in my aortic arch

i'm fine now. 

i just have an 11 inch scar on my back that i wear with pride

i cant be a champion weight lifter but that's OK because i don't want to be that

if you truly know me you'll know that i cant keep my hands still

i have to constantly be touching something or playing or messing with something 

that's why i wear a lot of jewelry because i play with it a ton

if you truly know me you'll know that i grew up listening to country music

John Denver with rocky mountain high was probably the first song i can remember

there is something soulful about about that music

i know people are always annoyed with the twang of it but it just brings me back to my roots

its weird i know

if you truly know me you'll know that i love it when people play with my hair

especially if they have long nails

i just love it

its so soothing and wonderful

i honestly love going to get my hair cut for the main reason that i love it when they do my hair

i could fall asleep with someone playing with my hair

if you truly know me you'll know that i love lotion

i have to have some with me at all times

i cannot stand having dry hands or seeing dry hands or feeling dry hands 

they just drive me up the wall

and i am pretty spot on with naming fragrances

so there it is 

some things about me that you now know

enjoy

live 

laugh 

and love alot

all the single ladies and valentines day

valentines day
one of the most pressured days of the year for romance
and quite frankly one of the sweetest days of the year too
half of the people are walking around school with flowers (97.72% of the time they are red roses) or chocolate or erroneously sized teddy bears with "i wuv you" on the stomach.

and then there is the other side of the spectrum. those of us who are single on the day filled with so much love for a significant other.
just yesterday one of my good friends aurora (i freaking love her name!) asked if i had a boyfriend. seeing as my currently relationship status on facebook is single, not really.

but i'm fine with it. i know some day i will be recieving the flowers and chocolate and the excessive ammounts of kisses. just not this year and thats totally fine by me.

last year at this time i was in a relationship and it was nice and everything but its nothing to all the hype that people have for today. i mean its just one day out of the year. 1 in 365.

people often have these crazy visions of what will happen on valentines day. some believe that a prince will come riding up on a white horse, sweep you off your feet and you'll ride off into the sunset. thats not reality. life is so much more interesting then that.
now tell me if i'm wrong, but i know of nobody actually having that done to them.
sure there are plenty of happily ever afters that exist. but love at first sight, who knows if that's even real.

i've tried at my hand at some "princes" and its never really worked out. most of the time they are just really good friends. so college here i come! next valentines day, who knows, maybe i'll be in a relationship. if not thats ok. i've survived 17 years (18 years old - last year with ex = 17)without a boyfriend to shower me with gifts, i think i can survive another valentines day as a single lady.

besides who else can eat an entire box of chocolate by herself and not feel bad about it.  no one to please. no worrying about what to get the guy. like i would know what to get! no hyped up expectations on what will happen tonight. so while the rest of you are playing tonsil hockey, i will be enjoying a carbo load, cheesy romantic music, a box of chocolates and spending time enjoying my family. because in the end your family will love you to the end of time :)

so happy valentines day

NOT
singles awareness day,

today is a day of love and romance. embrace the love you have in your life even if its not from a significant other. and if it is, then enjoy yourselves. live it up.

and remember
its fine to be single lady
and
fairytales are not reality
your life is way better then that.

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