Ferdinand

i have been on a bit of a writing block

i can not honestly think of anything to write about

so this is just a blog of random things about me

if you truly know me you'll know that Ferdinand the bull by Munro Leaf is my all time favorite childrens story

and i have no idea why

i guess when i was younger i never really thought of the message behind it and thought it was boring

but right now i feel like it has this wonderful meaning to me

how the bull is supposed to fight and his sole purpose in life is to fight and fight and fight

and yet hes perfectly content sitting under his favorite cork tree just smelling the flowers

it gives you a feel of to just enjoy the simple things in life 

like smelling the flowers and enjoying life

whenever i'm having a bad day and i just need to calm down i read that book and the world is at peace

hes just such a gentle soul

if you truly know me you'll know that i love yellow roses

i think that they are so classic and simple apposed to all those red and pink roses

red and pink are way overdone and imply romance

i like yellow because it still has that innocence and stand for friendship

and i think if you are ever going to love someone you have to be friends with the first

you cant just jump to soul mates

you have to care for them first

if you truly know me you'll know that i think the biggest compliment i will ever get is to be called witty

I've been called beautiful sexy and pretty way to many times

i need something different and those are all way over used

i need something new

i have so much more to me than my looks

i have been told that i should be a model

but i think i can make the world a way better place using my mind instead of my body

and sure some of those do imply an inner person

but not all the time 

i have a mind and i'd like to be know for that instead of my body

if you truly know me you'll know that i feel most comfortable in jeans

there is something so sexy and confident about jeans

i could honestly conquer the world if i was wearing a pair of skinny jeans

they cover everything and they pretty much go with anything

if you truly know me you'll know i love hats and boots

they add so much personality to things

and i think that they have the best styles and can be worn anywhere

i especially love fedoras and cloches and brown leather boots with heels and straps

just girly boots that are not in girly colors

i think brown can be sexy and strong at the very same time

i have a pair of boots that i call my "butt kicking boots"

i honestly feel like i could kick someones butt in these boots

if you truly know me you'll know i have a heart condition

when i was 15 hours old i had open heart surgery because there was a narrowing in my aortic arch

i'm fine now. 

i just have an 11 inch scar on my back that i wear with pride

i cant be a champion weight lifter but that's OK because i don't want to be that

if you truly know me you'll know that i cant keep my hands still

i have to constantly be touching something or playing or messing with something 

that's why i wear a lot of jewelry because i play with it a ton

if you truly know me you'll know that i grew up listening to country music

John Denver with rocky mountain high was probably the first song i can remember

there is something soulful about about that music

i know people are always annoyed with the twang of it but it just brings me back to my roots

its weird i know

if you truly know me you'll know that i love it when people play with my hair

especially if they have long nails

i just love it

its so soothing and wonderful

i honestly love going to get my hair cut for the main reason that i love it when they do my hair

i could fall asleep with someone playing with my hair

if you truly know me you'll know that i love lotion

i have to have some with me at all times

i cannot stand having dry hands or seeing dry hands or feeling dry hands 

they just drive me up the wall

and i am pretty spot on with naming fragrances

so there it is 

some things about me that you now know

enjoy

live 

laugh 

and love alot